2nd to last EAP therapy appt.
Mar. 10th, 2011 10:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
evilethe therapist hit on a very big point tonight that I had not realized...I like seeing Thax being affectionate with people I like and who I know like me (and, by the way, also respect our relationship)...when he is being affectionate with someone who dislikes me and does not respect me and has told me I'm "not interesting"...that does not feel good to me.
It does not feel good to me because if I had a friend who expressed dislike, disrespect, or disinterest in Thax, that person would more than likely no longer be someone I considered a friend or would want to hang out with. And he has not made a similar decision with regard to [redacted], which leaves me feeling hurt and confused.
BUT!!! He is not me. He is much better about agreeing to disagree, and letting other people's opinions not matter to him. I have a more ...dogmatic? sense of loyalty than that and I know it's been a weakness for me. In my head, I know that "those who are not with me are against me" is not a good personal philosophy. But...that's how I *feel*...
Definitely something to think about.
Oh, and also, I appreciate the people who have told me "she's leaving in August," and encouraged me to just grin and bear it til then. That perspective *does* help, some. But my therapist asked how I'd feel if I was bleeding profusely and someone told me "just wait till August, it'll be over then,"....so....yeah.
It does not feel good to me because if I had a friend who expressed dislike, disrespect, or disinterest in Thax, that person would more than likely no longer be someone I considered a friend or would want to hang out with. And he has not made a similar decision with regard to [redacted], which leaves me feeling hurt and confused.
BUT!!! He is not me. He is much better about agreeing to disagree, and letting other people's opinions not matter to him. I have a more ...dogmatic? sense of loyalty than that and I know it's been a weakness for me. In my head, I know that "those who are not with me are against me" is not a good personal philosophy. But...that's how I *feel*...
Definitely something to think about.
Oh, and also, I appreciate the people who have told me "she's leaving in August," and encouraged me to just grin and bear it til then. That perspective *does* help, some. But my therapist asked how I'd feel if I was bleeding profusely and someone told me "just wait till August, it'll be over then,"....so....yeah.
