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Feb. 13th, 2026 12:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
evileHousemate S may be coming in to more money; her deceased husband's stepdad is selling property in Utah and wants to 'buy out' S. and her sister in law (dead husband's sister). Once again, this is stuff she had no idea existed and therefore didn't know she had a claim to, and these folks are going out of their way to cut her in on it.
I really hope she continues to remain in contact and tries to refrain from being assy to them She could be comfortably set for the rest of her life if she's wise with this inheritance. Seems like the SIL is really trying hard to help her out.
and speaking of, ours, if it happens....
I'm thinking if Brother A. really moves out of the master bedroom area/apartment, I may go ahead and turn that room and the side yard into kind of a 'home spa' area. swim spa or hot tub, and then indoor salt booth and/or red light panels with a comfortable place to lay down and soak it up. Some yoga mats and things for exercising. Perhaps a continuation/fruition of Amma's dreams with regard to that room.
hm. Not 100% realisitic to think about but still fun. Would i actually use it? hahaha.
anyhoo...job interview Thursday. I need to recolor my hair.
Friday on the chore list while i'm being a fulltime housewife is clean up the bedroom and change the sheets. Make everything fresh and lovely for the weekend, sleeping in with my husband. It's his birthday Monday. We are going out for dinner with the fam. Aunt L. always likes to do things on the actual day.
Tomorrow would be my mother's birthday, it's the first since her death. I suppose Valentine's Day has always been sort of awful but this makes it somewhat worse; bleh
I bought myself a dozen roses yesterday while I was out shopping-lavender, yellow, and kind of pink-orangey-peach colored. I also got bird seed and a couple of birthday gifts for husband; his amazon wishlist is mostly stuff he's going to buy himself at some point, nothing 'heartfelt' or what I'd think of as personal. I dunno. it's hard to buy things for him when we have so much and so much *clutter* already, stuff that isn't being used for anything. But not getting him things makes me feel like I'm not showing caring....yay capitalism.
I planted a bunch of wildflower seeds in front and back yards (yay no HOA!) since it is supposed to rain today and tomorrow.
Ummmmm....what else? Walked and fed dogs. Looked at jobs. heard from a recruiter yesterday, she left voicemail around 4pm saying that an interview was available today at 1 if I was available. wow. I suppose I should have jumped on it but I didn't. I gave availability next week so if I do hear back from her I can do a little research on the position and prepare. I am lousy enough at job interviews when I *do* attempt to be prepared, so....why shoot myself in the foot on purpose by going in blind?
I think I am probably retired, though. whether I like it or not. We are in a recession, whether the government cares to admit it or now, the job market is bad, and I'm 55 years old, female and obese. Strike 3 I'm out. This article seems to suggest that at this age and this point in my career, I ought to be 1) relying on my network to find new work [what network?] and 2) in a management or leadership position rather than still doing support/back of house type work. Even though that's what I'm good at and what i like. I like processes, systems, and organization. I like it when those things are already in place. If/when I become familiar enough with the process and the WHY of the process [state and federal laws, organization rules, best practices, etc.) only then will I suggest or implement process improvements. I'm really comfortable with coming in and learning how to do the thing and doing the thing, consistently and reliably, for however long. I don't get bored with repetition. I could see myself in a training role, once I understood the system and process well enough to teach others. But as far as creating a system or process from scratch, not so much.
I really hope she continues to remain in contact and tries to refrain from being assy to them She could be comfortably set for the rest of her life if she's wise with this inheritance. Seems like the SIL is really trying hard to help her out.
and speaking of, ours, if it happens....
I'm thinking if Brother A. really moves out of the master bedroom area/apartment, I may go ahead and turn that room and the side yard into kind of a 'home spa' area. swim spa or hot tub, and then indoor salt booth and/or red light panels with a comfortable place to lay down and soak it up. Some yoga mats and things for exercising. Perhaps a continuation/fruition of Amma's dreams with regard to that room.
hm. Not 100% realisitic to think about but still fun. Would i actually use it? hahaha.
anyhoo...job interview Thursday. I need to recolor my hair.
Friday on the chore list while i'm being a fulltime housewife is clean up the bedroom and change the sheets. Make everything fresh and lovely for the weekend, sleeping in with my husband. It's his birthday Monday. We are going out for dinner with the fam. Aunt L. always likes to do things on the actual day.
Tomorrow would be my mother's birthday, it's the first since her death. I suppose Valentine's Day has always been sort of awful but this makes it somewhat worse; bleh
I bought myself a dozen roses yesterday while I was out shopping-lavender, yellow, and kind of pink-orangey-peach colored. I also got bird seed and a couple of birthday gifts for husband; his amazon wishlist is mostly stuff he's going to buy himself at some point, nothing 'heartfelt' or what I'd think of as personal. I dunno. it's hard to buy things for him when we have so much and so much *clutter* already, stuff that isn't being used for anything. But not getting him things makes me feel like I'm not showing caring....yay capitalism.
I planted a bunch of wildflower seeds in front and back yards (yay no HOA!) since it is supposed to rain today and tomorrow.
Ummmmm....what else? Walked and fed dogs. Looked at jobs. heard from a recruiter yesterday, she left voicemail around 4pm saying that an interview was available today at 1 if I was available. wow. I suppose I should have jumped on it but I didn't. I gave availability next week so if I do hear back from her I can do a little research on the position and prepare. I am lousy enough at job interviews when I *do* attempt to be prepared, so....why shoot myself in the foot on purpose by going in blind?
I think I am probably retired, though. whether I like it or not. We are in a recession, whether the government cares to admit it or now, the job market is bad, and I'm 55 years old, female and obese. Strike 3 I'm out. This article seems to suggest that at this age and this point in my career, I ought to be 1) relying on my network to find new work [what network?] and 2) in a management or leadership position rather than still doing support/back of house type work. Even though that's what I'm good at and what i like. I like processes, systems, and organization. I like it when those things are already in place. If/when I become familiar enough with the process and the WHY of the process [state and federal laws, organization rules, best practices, etc.) only then will I suggest or implement process improvements. I'm really comfortable with coming in and learning how to do the thing and doing the thing, consistently and reliably, for however long. I don't get bored with repetition. I could see myself in a training role, once I understood the system and process well enough to teach others. But as far as creating a system or process from scratch, not so much.
Wanting to come in at 'entry level' (even though they want years of experience even for 'entry' level] or associate level at my age makes me undesirable because it's feared that I won't be flexible, adaptable, 'hungry' enough, and won't stay long enough to be worth the investment. And age discrimination is against the law, so both myself and my interviewers have to speak in 'code' about this. They can't say 'we don't want to hire you because you're old,' and I can't say "I know I'm old but I am still good," in so many words. hm.
And since I fucked over everyone who had my back and recommended me internally at the job I wanted last year, I don't have any connections/word of mouth that will help me where I am now. I hadn't thought of it that way, but by telling all the account owners/executives/teams that I was going for a position, getting the offer (possibly because of them putting in a good word) and then not taking it (misinformation, misunderstanding, misplaced loyalty), I basically spit in their faces. I will never again turn down permanent full time work in favor of a contract. I learned that one pretty hard, didn't I? And of course, never working with that particular recruiter or for that particular company ever again.
anyhoo...I need to let that go. (wanting to beat self in head. STOP WITH THESE INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS AND RECRIMINATIONS. STOP STOP STOP. IT DOES NOT HELP. --I had insomnia until 3am going back over all of that bullshit. I am so tired of my fucking scumbag brain. yes I did a stupid. yes I made a mistake. yes I fucked myself over. Yes I miss my colleagues and the people I developed nice work relationships with. Yes I am sure I surprised and disappointed them by not taking the job they recommended me for. Yes I am in a bad place now because of that mistake. I can't do a fucking thing about it. I cannot go back in time. so please please please STOP STOP STOP)
I have an interview next week that I need to plan and prepare for, and hope that I speak the right magic words to overcome the 'overqualified' (means TOO OLD) prejudice. And working again will make me feel less worthless and stupid. Won't that be nice.
I have an interview next week that I need to plan and prepare for, and hope that I speak the right magic words to overcome the 'overqualified' (means TOO OLD) prejudice. And working again will make me feel less worthless and stupid. Won't that be nice.
