2260$ and food

[evile]

• Jun. 9, 2004

   

  *sigh* I am still waiting on my car lease co. to send me a letter
  saying we're square and they're done torturing me. I don't think they
  will.
  
  Since sending them a big ol' chunk o' $$ has left me with less
  disposable income for the month than I'm used to, I'm feeling poor.
  (I'm NOT!!!)
  
  Since I feel poor, I want to spend a lot of money on STUFF.
  chinese shoes on ebay & or chinadirect.com
  real absinthe from that czech guy's website
  Of course, I need an absinthe glass & spoon to go with it
  and while I'm on Ebay, there's that copy of Transforming Fabric that
  I bookmarked & want to buy sometime
  and devalifewear.com still beckons...
  
  Since I refuse to buy STUFF when I don't need anything & ought to
  hang on to my $, seems I'm always hungry.
  
  It's hard to fight the urge to spend $. It's hard to fight the urge
  to overeat.
  
  You'd think that understanding intellectually these cause & effect
  things would make them go away, or at least make them easier to
  control. But it doesn't, not really.
  
  That's one of the things Onyxlynxx & I talked about at dinner last night.
  That was very cool & nice, BTW. Onyxlynxx is one smart cookie. She's been
  through a lot in life & come out with some very hard-won wisdom. I
  like her a lot.