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[evile]

Jun. 6, 2003

 

 

evile: hugs! Hope your b-day was/is great fun!
SkyeDS: HUGS ty so much for the gift certificate! I ordered a
replacement deck for the deck that Williamson Co Sherriff's office
ruined, and two more besides :)))
SkyeDS: Kaleon managed to ruin my actual birthday but I hope to make
up for it today. How's things with you?
evile: Sorry 'bout the Kaleon. I am just really looking forward to
the weekend--lotsa stuff going on. I get to see Festive's new house &
go to the beach, and then Sunday is a maze & wine tasting :)
SkyeDS: he says that he had to defend me when I was accused of
breaking into email...I hope that has all settled out now...?
SkyeDS: maze might be fun AFTER the wine tasting, LOL
evile: I haven't spoken to him in ....months. If he still has
problems, they are purely HIS. Once I realized I wasn't going to talk
any sense into his pointed little head, I quit.
SkyeDS: he has a habit of repeating conversations exactly
backwards...ie what he says he said, and what he says everyone else
said, when everyone else is queried, turns out to be exactly
backwards. <shrug>
evile: Not my problem anymore, really.
SkyeDS: I figured if there were bad feelings you would have said, but
just in case...<drops subject>
evile: try to be nice to somebody, find a knife in your back...time
to not be nice anymore.
evile: I feel fortunate in that I hadn't invested enough
time/interest/emotion in the friendship to make it a really painful
loss.
SkyeDS: complete agreement here
evile: less like a backstab, more like picking up a puppy at the pet
store, having it piddle on you, and putting it back in the cage.
SkyeDS: regardless of what he says to the contrary, I know he was
attracted to you long before I left him, and thought there was hope
the night you played with his hair. poor baby.
SkyeDS: to me, that just illustrates that you would have been another
sharon <shrug>
evile: Well, I'm sorry he ruined your b-day by dragging all that
stuff back out
SkyeDS: oh that isn't even the tip of the iceburg regarding what came
out on my birthday.
evile: yuk
SkyeDS: I now have to reconvince myself that I am not a bad person in
general, that I am not a bad lover, and that I am not a bad sub to
the right master, among other things.
evile: eh, consider the source.
SkyeDS: I can't do anything about the wounds I've already taken. But
I"llb e damned if I hang around to take more. My Tenets of Belief
say to turn away from that which opposes the good in me, and I'm
gonna. I dont' think even Christ meant bend over, grab ankles and
turn those cheeks.
evile: nope.
I didn't realize you were a sub, at all. wierd.
SkyeDS: I am a sub in teh bedroom and nowhere else. Actually I'm a
switch, but 90% sub.
evile: Ok.
SkyeDS: the only place he can even pretend to be a Master (all he
ever did was pretend in my honest opinion) is in the bedroom, and in
same said opinion, he has no right to be judging me. Rocks and glass
domiciles and all that jazz.
evile: considering all his experience is online, I'd have to agree
with you.
SkyeDS: he told one of his other little friends that he thought I
would humiliate myself by going to GWNN because I was never a real
sub and I wouldn't fit in. We'll see about that.
evile: I find GWNN to be fairly...closed...to newcomers. I think the
key is to join one of the smaller interest groups or something like
that.
SkyeDS: I had a little talk with him about what he told you about
certain things that were not his to discuss and none of your business
(and you would have liked to have kept it that way if you'd had your
druthers, at least to my understanding) and I'm positive he left out
everything that would have given perspective and understanding.
SkyeDS: and what he was referring to as a contract, years ago, was
not, it was a list of requests I put on the refridgerator from Men
are from Mars, Women are from Venus (Dr. John Gray, excellent book).
evile: Looking back, I can see where things might have been slanted
to paint himself in a better light. But...everyone does that, to some
extent, and he's young & silly, so I didn't really call him to task
on any of it.I understood he was 'venting' and just let him talk.
SkyeDS: yes, well, what he did could have been (I suspect probably
was) very upsetting and may still be.
SkyeDS: I can't stop him, or Kim. And I don't know what to do to
repair the damage that might not end up making it worse.
evile: It's very difficult to fight lies that have just a few drops
of truth mixed in.
SkyeDS: but I damn well am not going to spend time with him until he
stops yelling at me when I cry, and throwing breakable objects at
walls (not at me granted, although he used to).
evile: yuck.
SkyeDS: I don't udnerstand why some men do that. They cry, I think,
not because they hurt, but because they know that like most women,
when I'm upset for good reason, and they want to invalidate my
feelings, they can cry, and I will automatically put aside my own
feelings to nurture them.
evile: yeah.
SkyeDS: but how dare I cry, how dare I even insinuate that they've
done something amiss, and boom, there goes the anger, until I am a
fetal ball on the couch about to have a migraine induced stroke.
SkyeDS: I don't like that game and I don't intend to play it anymore.
evile: nope.
SkyeDS: I tried to do the Share the Love thing on amazon so you could
get discounts if you wanted to order what I did, but I didn't put
commas in between the names so it didn't get all of them. I did add
you to my friends list as you probably saw, but I think it was too
late then :-/
evile: I got a thing from amazon.com for 3 decks. One of which is on
my (way too long) list of decks I want ;)
SkyeDS: got my Enell bras, haven't done anything but try them on,
bout to go riding in them, but I love them so far.
evile: cool
SkyeDS: would highly recommend them, but you can probably get one in
your size a lot easier from other companies if you wanted.
evile: I need to get professionally fitted (still)...I hate shopping
for bras. I don't do it unless the ones I have are falling apart.
SkyeDS: everyone has been threatening to burn the one bra I have that
I still consider wearable, and it really did deserve a decent burial.
evile: hee!
SkyeDS: I have a bad habit of putting things I love through the
sewing machine over and over long past the time they deserve decent
burial.
evile: Yeah...but it's usually rare to find something that is comfy &
nice, so i can totally see why you'd want to hang on to it.
SkyeDS: <reading about the new smoking ban
evile: That was a dumb move. Doesn't make me any difference, but will
probably kill a lot of business on 6th st.
SkyeDS: Sineater said at one point the ordinance went against even
smoking in the home. I don't think the City could do that legally.
evile: No, I don't think so. It doesn't even effect pool halls &
bingo parlors, as written.
SkyeDS: the US Surg Gen said he would support making any tobacco
product illegal at this point (like that is ever going to happen, but
an odd thing for a Republican to say)
evile: crazy.
SkyeDS: my grandmother asked me a loaded question aimed at getting my
party affiliation out of me, and I pointed told her, I hate both
sides equally, and I believe in the Constitution of the US, period,
and that was the end of that discussion.
evile: eek. I hate political discussion like that.
SkyeDS: I dont' know why the Dems ran off to Ardmore. Myself, I
would have run for NOLA. Or Hot Springs. Or maybe some place in New
Mexico. Might have to do with extradition though. I know that OK
doesn't extradite to TX if they can help it. Why criminals like to
run to OK.
evile: That was sort of a bad move. I mean, not like they had much of
a choice, but still bad PR
SkyeDS: I just think Ardmore is funny. I've been there many times,
as I'm sure you have. Wouldn't you rather run to NOLA?
evile: Yeah, but that would give people one more thing to criticize.
I mean...you KNOW the Dems weren't having any FUN. they were in
fricken Ardmore fricken Oklahoma, for cryin out loud :P
SkyeDS: where all hardcore porn and some softcare is illegal tee
hee ;)
evile: silly.
SkyeDS: I think I'm going to go riding while we're in between
storms. I wanted to ride yesterday but I spent hte entire day
catching up on sleep I was rudely deprived of, and being period-
exhausted and attached to heating pad.
evile: Yeah, catch it while it's still good out there :)
SkyeDS: <hugs> don't like burn the fort down or kill coworkers while
I'm gone ;)
evile: nah. Too many things to look forward to :)
evile: *hugs* Have fun!
SkyeDS: ciao, bella :)