evile

Jan. 23, 2004

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2004-01-21 1:33 p.m.

Sis, I'm sorry you don't understand my life. I'm sorry that I'm a
24/7 submissive and you just play around at it with your idiot
husband. Because you just "play", you will never understand why
things in my life are as they are. You can't believe I let Her punish
me? What do you expect? Actions = Consequences. But then you always
have had a problem with that concept. If I am assigned a task, and I
do not do it, I am punished for not doing it. You know - like getting
an F on the homework assignment you didn't turn in. If Ma'am didn't
punish me when I do wrong, then my submission would be pointless. If
you want to ruin your world - go for it, but quit trying to taint my
beautiful world. I love my submission to Ma'am, and I'll not have you
make it into something perverted and sick. Go away... go play your
freaking games, and don't come back.

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My reply:

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2004-01-23 7:16 a.m.

Dear Bro,

I understand the concept of a 24/7 TPE. Don't really see why anyone
would want to do it (from either side), but okay.

Where I have a problem is: there's fine line between abuse and BDSM
play, and I think she transgresses it regularly. Add the fact that
she blames you for her mistakes and punishes you for them. She also
blames and punishes you for things that are basically no one's fault.
She also doesn't let you get enough sleep. Which is is how cults
indoctrinate their members. I don't believe you're in your right mind
most of the time because she keeps you so exhausted and confused.

But...she was your choice and it is your life. You're right about
that.

That being said, know this: if she lays a hand on you in my presence,
that bitch is toast.