evile

Jun. 24, 2002

Can't remember exact wording of question,something about how
seriously should I take e and X talking about Tom?
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Card: The High Priestess

Women are known for having a powerful intuition, a strong sense of
the undercurrent of emotions lying between the spoken and unspoken
word. This card is full of the strong feminine energy of intuition.
The High Priestess relies less on her connection to the physical
world to make her judgements and complete tasks and more on her inner
strengths and powerful insight.
The High Priestess suggests that you look at problems intuitively,
from another angle. There are times when we want to address a problem
that we know exists, but it doesn't seem to be a knowledge that was
achieved rationally. Despite its seeming irrationality, this becomes
valuable insight to act upon. Sometimes it is just this type of
insight that makes people seem like mind readers and allows them to
solve small problems before they become large ones. The High
Priestess qualities help identify the hidden influences in your life.
A woman I know communicates telepathically to animals through
pictures transmitted between them. She says we are all born with this
ability, but when we learn to verbalize we quickly lose the ability
or it becomes dormant. It might just be that this ability is called
intuition and actually has a rational explainable basis. We are
somehow open to pick up on people's thoughts and internal reactions
in this manner along with our outward communications with them.
The negative aspect to the High Priestess is emotional instability
and a dependency on external cues and over-calculated actions. There
might be atendency to be secretive and guarded to keep an initiate
from learning too much before they are ready.
The nun in the movie Dead Man Walking <http://us.imdb.com/Title?
0112818> was a High Priestess character, guiding the convict to make
a connection with his humanity, bringing his repentance and a higher
awareness of his spirituality.
In the movie Field of Dreams <http://us.imdb.com/Title?0097351> a
farmer trusts in intuition and what seems like a dreamlike message to
create a baseball field in his cornfield which becomes not only a
baseball field of dreams, but a field of closure and healing for
several important issues in his life and the lives of others.
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Then again, Elena is a codependent little sicko who seems to want me
to go thru bad times so she can be there for me. Sort of like
drowning kittens in order to rescue them. And Xtal...well, she's a
user. And her idea of a good marriage seems to be one in which Mike
works as much as possible, gives her all his money, and doesn't do
much else.
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How should I continue my job search?

The King of Cups represents an individual who has repressed his
emotions and dreams to be able to succeed in a world that appreciates
material achievements. This individual has conflicting emotions
regarding intimate relationships. On one hand there is a desire for
closeness and commitment; on the other hand there is a fear of being
contained and limited by these emotions. Confrontation is necessary
to face fears and accept the growth that comes with emotional
challenges.
We see the King of Cups as an ingenious man, a light on his head
representing his burning ambition and drive. He stares off into space
completely detached from anything but his feelings. According to
scientists bumblebees are too big to fly on their light wings and yet
they do; so in that manner the bees flying through the air represent
dreaming the impossible dream. A house stands behind him representing
his worldly accomplishments.
As a card of actions it might question motives and actions, ask that
you face your fears of emotional commitment and re-examine your
relationships from another perspective.
In a negative light the card would suggest that an individual is
dishonest, ruled by intellectual emotions and is possibly domineering
and manipulative.
The main character in An Officer and a Gentleman
<http://us.imdb.com/Title?0084434> had many of the King of Cups
attributes. He suppresses his ego in order to fit in and make it
through officers' training and throughout most of the movie maintains
his emotional distance in all his relationships until the end of the
movie where he drops his King of Cups reserve.
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"Confrontation is necessary to face fears and accept the growth that
comes with emotional challenges."

I need a job that lets me be me? What am I afraid of?