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 bombed another job interview, just heard back today that I didn't get the job I interviewed for earlier this week. I knew I was fucking up as I was sitting there fucking it up...which probably made it worse. Just...babbling. Irrelevant stupid panic bla bla. God I hate me .  So  so much. why can't I just stfu and fucking die. 

Oh well. Onward.

Put in for another job at a place I've had two interviews but no job offer as of  yet. Maybe 3rd time is a charm! LOL. 

Or I might finally just be at a point where the ageism is not able to be overcome, along with sexism and fatphobia, and I'm not employable anymore.

We'll see.