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Nov. 9th, 2024 01:03 pm been cleaning the kitchen all morning. like, deep cleaning, going thru cabinets, getting rid of shit kind of cleaning.
It's a lot. I'm not very far along. but what I've gotten done looks and feels good. Emotionally if not physically. My right foot is having a lot of pain, mostly in the bottom of my heel. Feels bruised. Plantar Fasciitis (sp?) is what Dr. Google says it probably is.
we had a contractor in the house all morning installing the floor in the front room. We have a double pocket door on order that we are meeting a contractor this afternoon to get a quote on installing. Our floor guy knows the door guy so they'll work together and then the last part of the floor that meets the door frame can get finished up and then it'll be a room! yay.
My sister H. is visiting next week; I want her to see the room and our house as a viable place for our mom to live if needed. I hope she'll decide that Mom is ok where she is, but if that doesn't happen, I hope she'll feel that it's a good idea to keep mom near most of her family rather than back to IN where she only has my sister, brother in law, and niece. My sister has a better support system for herself than I do, or than we do here in our house...so it's going to be stressful either way. H. has training and experience in elder care. I don't know what's best for mom and she can't speak or decide for herself anymore, so this is all very hard.
I have a coworker who is a notary. I'm going to touch base with her to find out when she plans to be in the office again and see about getting a couple of coworkers to be witnesses for all my death stuff. There's only one form (disposal of body, I think?) that needs my 'agents' to sign as well (Sister H. and or husband Thax) plus the two witnesses and notary. so hopefully we can get that squared away while she's here too
She wants to go do 'fun' stuff. i don't know what is fun here anymore. I don't really do fun. I get up, walk dogs, go to work, walk dogs, cook supper, watch TV, go to bed. I smile and laugh at the dogs when they are sweet and cute. I've been vacant/checked out mostly since 2016. I miss me. I miss connection. I don't know how to do it anymore.
I am going to stay away from Facebook for a while if I can. I'm also on Fark. I will try to stay away from that too.
News is going to happen whether I see it or not.
i am thinking of re-reading some good and hopeful books that I remember as being good when I read them: Chronicles of Narnia, Wrinkle in Time (will I be able to get past or tolerate the christian themes now that I know they are there?). And Gate to Womens Country by Sheri S. Tepper. Feminist Utopia where the barbarian male hordes are left to play Mad Max while women live in safe peaceful civilized women-ruled walled compounds sounds kinda good right now, not gonna lie.
It's a lot. I'm not very far along. but what I've gotten done looks and feels good. Emotionally if not physically. My right foot is having a lot of pain, mostly in the bottom of my heel. Feels bruised. Plantar Fasciitis (sp?) is what Dr. Google says it probably is.
we had a contractor in the house all morning installing the floor in the front room. We have a double pocket door on order that we are meeting a contractor this afternoon to get a quote on installing. Our floor guy knows the door guy so they'll work together and then the last part of the floor that meets the door frame can get finished up and then it'll be a room! yay.
My sister H. is visiting next week; I want her to see the room and our house as a viable place for our mom to live if needed. I hope she'll decide that Mom is ok where she is, but if that doesn't happen, I hope she'll feel that it's a good idea to keep mom near most of her family rather than back to IN where she only has my sister, brother in law, and niece. My sister has a better support system for herself than I do, or than we do here in our house...so it's going to be stressful either way. H. has training and experience in elder care. I don't know what's best for mom and she can't speak or decide for herself anymore, so this is all very hard.
I have a coworker who is a notary. I'm going to touch base with her to find out when she plans to be in the office again and see about getting a couple of coworkers to be witnesses for all my death stuff. There's only one form (disposal of body, I think?) that needs my 'agents' to sign as well (Sister H. and or husband Thax) plus the two witnesses and notary. so hopefully we can get that squared away while she's here too
She wants to go do 'fun' stuff. i don't know what is fun here anymore. I don't really do fun. I get up, walk dogs, go to work, walk dogs, cook supper, watch TV, go to bed. I smile and laugh at the dogs when they are sweet and cute. I've been vacant/checked out mostly since 2016. I miss me. I miss connection. I don't know how to do it anymore.
I am going to stay away from Facebook for a while if I can. I'm also on Fark. I will try to stay away from that too.
News is going to happen whether I see it or not.
i am thinking of re-reading some good and hopeful books that I remember as being good when I read them: Chronicles of Narnia, Wrinkle in Time (will I be able to get past or tolerate the christian themes now that I know they are there?). And Gate to Womens Country by Sheri S. Tepper. Feminist Utopia where the barbarian male hordes are left to play Mad Max while women live in safe peaceful civilized women-ruled walled compounds sounds kinda good right now, not gonna lie.
