
Yep. I went away and I don't know when or if I'll ever be back. I spend time wondering if I am the way I am because it's just part of being a person my age and everyone before me felt this way at this age, or if it's the pandemic, the 4 years of Donald fucking Trump, the ongoing trauma and horror of living in a state and a country that doesn't believe I am a human being deserving of rights and dignity and healthcare, that is steadily drifting into fascism and a haves vs have nots that is literally worse than people experienced just prior to the French Revolution......the rich hate us and want us dead--but not before spending our lives in service and payment to them. The Right just hates us and wants us dead. Because Jesus or some shit. It's hard to be alive right now and I am tired of trying to act like everything is normal.