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Writer's Block: Cyberstalking
Oct. 12th, 2009 09:27 am[Error: unknown template qotd]
Of *course* I have (do?) and of course it's a bad idea. It's emotionally unhealthy and it is painful, both for myself and those who care about me who get tired of watching me poke holes in myself just to watch myself bleed. Or, ya know, maybe not even that dramatic. It's a disgusting habit, like nose-picking, that your friends get embarassed and disgusted when they catch you doing it.
Exes, both friends and lovers, those people are out of my life for a reason. Good or bad, they're gone, and I really don't want them back.
Of course, I'd find it enjoyable to check in on their Myspace, Facebook, and LJ and find them a) suffering terrible misfortunes
b) lamenting about how wrong they were and/or
c) missing me terribly and feeling like complete crap for treating me so bad.
BUT, that is NEVER gonna happen, and my smart brain knows it.
Still, every once in a while, I get bored, or I don't want to focus on something more immediately painful, so I go lookin' at people from my past.
le sigh.
Of *course* I have (do?) and of course it's a bad idea. It's emotionally unhealthy and it is painful, both for myself and those who care about me who get tired of watching me poke holes in myself just to watch myself bleed. Or, ya know, maybe not even that dramatic. It's a disgusting habit, like nose-picking, that your friends get embarassed and disgusted when they catch you doing it.
Exes, both friends and lovers, those people are out of my life for a reason. Good or bad, they're gone, and I really don't want them back.
Of course, I'd find it enjoyable to check in on their Myspace, Facebook, and LJ and find them a) suffering terrible misfortunes
b) lamenting about how wrong they were and/or
c) missing me terribly and feeling like complete crap for treating me so bad.
BUT, that is NEVER gonna happen, and my smart brain knows it.
Still, every once in a while, I get bored, or I don't want to focus on something more immediately painful, so I go lookin' at people from my past.
le sigh.
