ED 12/11/02

 

 

1025 last night's dream, horoscopes

 

• Dec. 11, 2002

   

  Last night's dream: going to the beach with Austin Polys. I went &
  set up my beach stuff a ways away, thought it was a nicer spot than
  they had [theirs was too crowded], went walking around, came back to
  show one of the girl austin polys my spot and it was mostly washed
  away by tides.
  
  Something about Alex & Greg, Alex had movie footage that Greg told
  him he had to use before it was thrown away or something.
  
  Then I went to a bath/shower house, it was a cabin with beds &
  people's backpacks, towels, swimsuits, all over. I took a shower,when
  I came out it turns out the cabin was a bus and had been rented by
  sorority girls, and he was taking them all home. I explained what had
  happened & he was going to take me back to the beach after dropping
  off the girls. He gave me $20, for some reason, and let me smoke his
  pipe (drugs? dunno)...and I think that was it.
  
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  Taurus
  Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
  What good is it to force yourself to make important decisions when
  it's obvious to you that you're just not ready, dear Taurus? You did
  the right thing by not giving into the pressures on you, and by
  taking the time to put things into perspective. It is only when you
  are calm and rested that your mind is capable of making those
  important decisions that are expected of you and that will affect
  everyone around you.
  
  Gemini
  Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
  You may have noticed that sometimes people are awfully invasive, and
  that you aren't always in the mood to listen to their problems or
  secrets, especially if they aren't terribly important. And, besides,
  today you have no desire to waste your time worrying about other
  people, dear Gemini. It's time to take care of yourself! Try to make
  yourself unavailable to anything that isn't absolutely essential to
  other people. It's your turn.
  
  Today:
  The differences between people are often smaller than we think, and
  especially on days like today that mean virtually the same things to
  everyone. Some incredible changes have taken place in the world and
  in its economic and social systems in the past month, and now is the
  time to think what the next few years have in store for us, Erika? Do
  you have any ideas? Try to create a vision!
  
  Your Rising Sign
  
  Don't be afraid to tackle heavy emotional issues, with the Moon
  square Pluto. You will find that you are able to hold your own in a
  group situation, and that other people will respect you for your
  strong emotions. It might be necessary to shed roles that have you
  locked into acting a certain way within a group scenario. Make some
  boundaries for yourself by stating clear objectives and limitations
  before you get tied up with the energy of others.
  
  Daily Numeroscope - December 11, 2002
  
  Life Path Number: 6
  
  If things have been feeling less than harmonious in your home, Erika,
  this is the day to make a difference. Call everyone together and get
  some peace talks going. The essence of this 11-Day will not only
  encourage this, but it will give you much strength and confidence in
  your leadership role. You will have far more confidence in your
  ability to nurture and problem-solve. This is an excellent time for
  getting things moving in a better direction.

 

1026 deep thoughts

 

• Dec. 11, 2002

   

  You know, I think everyone goes through a "Look at me, I'm a Freak!"
  stage in life. Every child daydreams about being adopted and that her
  real parents are some wonderful, perfect <a
  href="http://www.dragoncon.org/people/morrisp.html">aristocrats</a>
  off in a cloud somewhere, who will come rescue him when the time is
  right. Some people fantasize about being aliens, dragons or unicorns
  in human form, or have fantasies about being <a
  href="http://www.indigochild.com/">saviors of the human race</a>.
  Some people like to tell themselves (& others) stories about being
  part of a long tradition of hereditary magicians or spell-casters or
  clairvoyants. Some people like to believe that they are re-
  incarnations of Buddha, Jim Morrison, Henry VIII, Cleopatra, or
  whoever. It's normal. I think most people outgrow it by their mid-
  teens or so. For the people who don't...well, whatever gets you
  through the day, man.
  
  In typical gemini fashion, I am of two minds about this:
  
  One is to shrug it off and say "I am the same decaying organic matter
  as everything else. I am not a precious snowflake"...and in a way,
  that's comforting. No huge expectations, no guilt, no false hopes.
  Just a life that will be lived in obscurity, a death like all others,
  mourned by relatively few. No pressure. I am nothing. And that's okay.
  
  The other is to think on a cosmic scale; of the forces that created
  this planet, this particular mix of water and earth, pressure,
  temperature and amino acids, the long processes of life and death and
  competition that brought you and me to the top of the food chain. The
  complex arrangement of myriad cells that we call a human being. The
  competition and cooperation that allow us to utilize our environment
  and keep living day after day. The amazingly specialized parts of our
  body, inside and out, the one special cell we can choose to combine
  with another human's specialized cell and produce another being
  capable of learning, growth, introspection, interaction, and
  reproduction in turn. It is empowering and humbling. It is the same
  amazing cosmic force that created every other human, indeed, every
  other thing in the universe....but no less awe-inspiring for all that.
  
  From the beginning, the odds are against you. Unprotected sex only
  has a 15 percent success rate. A surprising number of pregnancies are
  miscarried in the first 3 months, often without the mother even
  knowing she was pregnant. Infant mortality rates are better now than
  they have been, but still significant. Childhood diseases still
  exist. Random accidents happen every day. To be alive today is not
  just one miracle but a succession of them.
  
  I don't need to be the high priestess of Bunkabunk, the reincarnation
  of Clara Bow, a werewolf, or anything else. It's miraculous enough to
  just be me. At least for today.
  
  

  1027drink

   

  • Dec. 11, 2002

     

    Went to webtender.com to see what can be done with chambord, besides
    drinking it with champagne. A few of the recipes had Godiva.
    
    so, here' my new drink (it's a shot, actually):
    
    1/2 oz Chambord
    1/2 oz Godiva
    1/2 oz half & half
    
    The name 'vampire's kiss' was already taken, and it's not sour enough
    to be called 'vampire bite', even though there is nothing by that
    name.
    
    How 'bout 'Carmilla's Kiss'
    
    woo!