EJ 9/8

 

 

 

865ce weekend

 

• Sep. 8, 2002

   

  Friday nite: Worked out. Went to HEB and Whole Foods looking for
  Odwalla. Found 'em. All set up for my liquid fast for the weekend:
  Friday at Sunset to Monday at Sunset. saw "Reign of Fire" with Tom at
  the dollar movies. Bad movie. Silly Matthew Mccaunahay (sp?) with his
  big busy beard and no head hair. feh. Plot holes you could drive a
  truck thru: where were they getting their fuel, electricity, clean
  water? Convenient helicopter landing pad there at the end where they
  confronted the only male dragon. feh. Silly. But hilarious. Worth the
  $2.
  
  Saturday: woke up, snuggled, got lucky. Puttered 'roun the house,
  drinking coffee. Did Laundry, dishes, didn't clean my work room.
  Got my oil changed. Got the nail in my tire removed & tire
  patched. Checked po box. Joanns fabric, looking for stuff. Found some
  corn fabric that will make hilarious chemise for terrible TRF costume.
  Toy Joy to get K&K's wedding present--Tiki glasses. Found good hawaii'
  themeed wrapping paper, too. Made FRench onion soup for dinner. Very
  good.
  
  Sunday: up, went to Nude Yoga, nobody showed. I forgot to go to the
  thing at Elysium on Friday. I wonder if Lonnie is mad. He never told
  me what to put on flyers, so I never made any. :( Went to gym, did 40
  min on treadmill, weight circuit (all my fave machines are breaking
  and since the ones that were brokenwhen I joined are still broken,
  likely to remain so. I like them. electronic to set different positive
  & negative weights (like up is 20 lbs, down is 30, Lonnie tol dme this
  is a good way to 'trick' your body into building strength), little
  LED readouts of your reps. I will be sad when none of those work
  anymore :(. HEB: more onions & bouillon, 2-for-1 Garnier coupon, so
  got two black cherrys, got dishwasher soap. Then Ross, where none of
  the ruffly ren-shirts fit right, none of the jeans fit right, so I got
  a purse, a backpack purse for Cozumel, and a new little mini-purse to
  replace my wallet on a string, which was about to die. Also a ceramic
  corn mug for my terrible renfaire costume. Dyed my hair. Made soup.
  Finished getting outfits for the week ready. did some dishes. Watched
  TV. Finished _the Tin Princess_ and _the Glass dragon_ both this
  weekend. Dreamt about the B'bards, and bad reception on my cell phone,
  and something about going back to Tulane and having a 3 story
  apartment, with the bathroom in the lowest level, living and kitchen
  on street level, and bedroom upstairs. Wierd. Bookshelves were in
  shower stall, I was trying to figure out how to keep books from
  getting wet.
  
  Wierd dreams. Quiet Weekend. Not looking forward to the week.

866 my poly past?

 

• Sep. 8, 2002

   

  The last time I went to an Austin Poly event, Jason started talking
  about women and their society-inflicted hangups, how it's sometimes
  harder to get a woman to explore her sexual feelings because of all
  this engrained guilt. That really hit something with me. I started
  thinking about my past, my history, my erotic awakening (s) and
  identifying the sources of shame that have haunted me...trying to
  find a way to make peace with the original sexual self that I started
  to find, in innocence, and who was kind of chased into the shadows
  because I was told that I wasn't supposed to be this way or that way.
  And then wondering how I can be at peace with me/her while
  maintaining a good relationship with my very monogamous heterosexual
  guy. Just being with a group of people who can be openly
  affectionate, any old way, and who are so non-judgemental about
  things is really water in the desert for me. I feel like I've come
  home. Even if none of these relationships turn into sex...I am just
  really glad & grateful to have such a good bunch of people to spend
  time with.