475 Wierd dreams, etc

 

• Apr. 23, 2002

   

  I woke up this a.m. thinking I'd just spent the night thinking
  instead of dreaming.
  
  but then I remembered a dream i had.Very wierd.
  
  I dreamt that we went to an after-hours thing at Wiggy's, like a
  tasting or something. It was odd; the back room where all the wine is
  was dark and covered in plastic, and there was a little area with
  bistro tables & chairs, decorated kind of like the Chisholm
  winery...it was wierd. And then I was trying to decide whether or not
  to buy this booze that was made from gasoline or motor oil....and
  then before I made up my mind, the owner had to take the motor oil
  booze off the shelf and stop selling it because it was illegal. And
  we were asking where Howard was because he was the one supposedly
  hosting the event. And somehow, Wiggy's was on the active part of 6th
  st, and my brother Alex was outside with glowsticks and trying to
  convince us to go to this church with him...
  
  Anyway....wierd dream. I have no clue what my subconscious mind was
  trying to figure out with all that bizarre symbolism.
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  No clue what to wear to A&A's wedding. The ballroom skirt is way too
  long and too big in the waist to wear with a regular tuck-in kind of
  blouse. Wearing a blouse untucked over the skirt just makes me look
  huge. I look like shit in my purple corset over the skirt. I HAVE NO
  WAIST! I LOOK LIKE UNIBOOB!!! Maybe with a cape or big scarf over
  it, it would look OK. But where am I to find a purple scarf or cape
  to match these things at this point in time? I guess I'll go
  looking...less traumatic to look for a nice scarf than it would be to
  try on a new dress/ skirt/ outfit at this point.
  
  I really liked doing the sarong thing on Saturday out at CMA. Black
  tank top, black leggings, sarong tied on as a skirt, big straw hat
  with "Nile goddess & spiral" scarf tied under my chin, tortoiseshell
  sunglasses. Now that's a good look, but probably doesnt' qualify
  as "Casually Formal" or whatever the invite said for the dress code.
  
  I'm going to skate nite with Holly tonight. I think her dad is coming
  too. bummer. I told her I'd emailed Eric to invite him, but didn't
  expect to hear from him or have him show up. Holly got his # from me
  and said she'd call him. I hope for her sake, he makes an effort. It
  is very hurtful to be continually treated to silence. I have no idea
  what it means, if anything. Maybe he's just too busy. Maybe he's
  changed email addresses and hasn't given me the new one. (a whole new
  subset of assumptions blossoms at questioning WHY he hasn't given me
  the new one) Or maybe wifey isn't letting my messages get to him. Or
  maybe he's mad because I don't email wifey anymore, so he feels like
  I am deliberately excluding her from my invitations. Not the case,
  but assumptions are bad. Which is why I'm trying NOT to assume
  anything about Eric's continued silence.
  
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  My Taurus & Gemini horoscopes are usually pretty complimentary. But
  today they are completely opposite one another. Weird.
  
  Taurus
  Horoscope (by astrocenter.com)
  What strength! The world is going to see a Taurian at full power
  today! A breath of creativity and modernism inspire you today. If you
  work in dressmaking, for example, then you will find some unique
  sources for your garments. If you work in a traditional family
  business, you find yourself changing your work methods and updating
  all the equipment. In fact, everything is brought up to date today,
  including your ideas about the way a business should be run...
  
  Gemini
  Horoscope (by astrocenter.com)
  Today is marked by a feeling of great openness to the world. When
  exchanging ideas with friends or colleagues at work, humanistic
  themes dominate. Alas, none of the ideas are grounded in reality. For
  today, practicality takes a back seat to your overwhelming desire to
  commit yourself to one of the world's great causes. Dear dear Gemini,
  your intentions are so honorable. But why not put them through a
  reality check before single-handedly setting out to save the
  planet...