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2741 Sineater & skye_ds on the skids again
Dec. 22, 2004
To: poly-austin@yahoogroups.com
From: "sineater k
Date: Tue, 21 Dec 2004 12:28:25 -0600
Subject: Re: [poly-austin] Digest Number 795
I can't be in a poly relationship when I don't have a healthy
relationship with my wife. Last night I made her cry for six hours,
and I yelled at her, attacked her when she cried. I made up things to
be mad at her about, and yelled them at her as if they were true. I
looked her straight in the eye and told her another woman was sexier
than she was. I didn't apologize, I didn't reassure her, I didn't
comfort her, I didn't hold her and try to make it better. I yelled at
her.
She loves me, completely, wholeheatedly, passionately, and this is
how I've rewarded her. I've broken every promise I ever made to her,
especially and finally the promise I made never to do this to her
again. Again. I've treated her this way for thirteen years. I've
neglected her, lied to her, cheated on her, abandoned her, betrayed
her, ignored her, abused her. Told her she was fat. Made her feel
ugly and unwanted. Beaten her. Put my hands around her throat.
Forced her to get an abortion, threatened to leave her if she
didn't. Forced her to kill our child. And done this again, and again.
I'll get better for a while, then do it again. I don't treat her, my
wife, my partner, my happiness, the center of my life, the only
woman who has loved me unreservedly, the woman I claim to love, as
though I love her. I treat every other woman in my life better than
I've treated her. I give other women parts of myself I've never
given to her. Skye has always been completely honest and open with
me. She never stopped loving me, not for somebody else, not even
after all I've done to her unyil last night. I've proven repeatedly
that I can't. I never accepted from her the love that she tried to
give me, the parts of herself she wanted to share with me. I've
thrown away the most beautiful woman I've ever known, who only
wanted to make me happy. So no, in a nutshell, I'm not poly. I can't
be poly.
To: poly-austin@yahoogroups.com
From: "CrystalBell" Add to Address Book
Date: Tue, 21 Dec 2004 15:13:55 -0600
Subject: Re: [poly-austin] Digest Number 795
sineater.. You need to seek professional help .. WHY you hate yourself,
and how much you do only shows in the anger you show towards your
wife. Be happy you did not married me, for you would not be alive to
have written this note. I wish you luck in the future that you get
yourself help.
Sierra
To: poly-austin@yahoogroups.com
From: "bipurple
Date: Tue, 21 Dec 2004 23:22:35 -0600
Subject: RE: [poly-austin] Digest Number 795
just out of curiousity...why the public confession?
rifka
bipurple@ev1.net
www.livejournal.com/users/purplerifka
my skeletons won't stay in the closet, so i am teaching them to dance
kelly
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his LJ:
Tue, Dec. 21st, 2004, 12:01 pm
I can't be in a poly relationship when I don't have a healthy
relationship with my wife.
Last night I made her cry for six hours, and I yelled at her,
attacked her when she cried. I made up things to be mad at her about,
and yelled them at her as if they were true. I looked her straight in
the eye and told her another woman was sexier than she was. I didn't
apologize, I didn't reassure her, I didn't comfort her, I didn't hold
her and try to make it better. I yelled at her.
She loves me, completely, wholeheatedly, passionately, and this is
how I've rewarded her. I've broken every promise I ever made to her,
especially and finally the promise I made never to do this to her
again.
Again. I've treated her this way for thirteen years. I've neglected
her, lied to her, cheated on her, abandoned her, betrayed her,
ignored her, abused her. Told her she was fat. Made her feel ugly and
unwanted. Beaten her. Put my hands around her throat. Forced her to
get an abortion, threatened to leave her if she didn't. Forced her to
kill our child.
And done this again, and again. I'll get better for a while, then do
it again.
I don't treat her, my wife, my partner, my happiness, the center of
my life, the only woman who has loved me unreservedly, the woman I
claim to love, as though I love her. I treat every other woman in my
life better than I've treated her. I give other women parts of myself
I've never given to her.
Skye has always been completely honest and open with me. She never
stopped loving me, not for somebody else, not even after all I've
done to her unyil last night. I've proven repeatedly that I can't. I
never accepted from her the love that she tried to give me, the parts
of herself she wanted to share with me. I've thrown away the most
beautiful woman I've ever known, who only wanted to make me happy.
So no, in a nutshell, I'm not poly. I can't be poly.
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Tue, Dec. 21st, 2004, 11:54 am
Don't you dare try and defend me. Please.
You...
bramblekite
2004-12-22 14:03 (link)
are no good for A. She is no good for you. You bring out the worst in
one another.
Get help, and a good divorce lawyer.
I love you. Nobody deserves to be abused or mistreated, no matter
what they've done wrong. Not you and not her.
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skye_ds (skye_ds) wrote,
@ 2004-12-21 21:42:00
Current mood: crushed
"Rhiannon" ~ Fleetwood Mac
Rhiannon rings like a bell throu the night
And wouldn't you love to love her
Takes to the sky like a bird in flight
And who will be her lover
All your life you've never seen a woman
Taken by the wind
Would you stay if she promised you heaven
Will you ever win
She is like a cat in the dark
And then she is the darkness
She rules her life like a fine skylark
And when the sky is starless
All your life you've never seen a woman
Taken by the wind
Would you stay if she promised you heaven
Will you ever win
Will you ever win
Rhiannon
Rhiannon
Rhiannon
Rhiannon
She rings like a bell throu the night
And wouldn't you love to love her
She rules her life like a bird in flight
And who will be her lover
All your life you've never seen a woman
Taken by the wind
Would you stay if she promised you heaven
Will you ever win
Will you ever win
Rhiannon
Rhiannon
Rhiannon
Oooooh
Taken by
Taken by the sky
Taken by
Taken by the sky
Taken by
Taken by the sky
Dreams unwind
Loves a state of mind
Dreams unwind
Loves a state of mind
"Silver Spring" ~ Fleetwood Mac
You could be my silver spring....
Blue-green..colors flashin'
I would be your only dream.....
Your shinin' autumn....ocean crashin'....
Don't say that she's pretty....
and did you say that she loves you...?
Baby I don't wanna know.
So I'll begin not to love you...
Turn around, you'll see me runnin'
I'll say I loved you years ago...
And tell myself you never loved me....No......
Don't say that she's pretty....
And did you say that she loves you...?
Baby, I don't wanna know....Oh no.....
And can you tell me...was it worth it....?
Baby, I don't wanna know..
Time cast a spell on you...you won't forget me...
I know I could've loved you but you would not let me....
Time cast a spell on you...but you won't forget me...
(I was such a fool)
I know I could've loved you, but you would not let me..
(Give me one more chance)
I'll follow you down 'til the sound of my voice will haunt you..
(Haunt you)
You'll never get away from the sound of the woman that loves you..
"Most Beautiful Girl" ~ Charlie Rich
Tell her, "I'm sorry."
Tell her, "I need my baby."
Oh.... Won't you tell her that I love her.
I woke up this morning and realized what I had done
I stood alone in the cold gray dawn
I knew I'd lost my morning sun
I lost my head and I said some things
Now come the heartaches that morning brings
I know I'm wrong and I couldn't see
I let my world slip away from me
So.......
Hey, did you happen to see the most beautiful girl in the world?
And if you did, was she crying, crying?
Hey, if you happen to see the most beautiful girl that walked out on
me
Tell her, "I'm sorry."
Tell her, "I need my baby."
Oh.... Won't you tell her that I love her.
( break )
Hey, did you happen to see the most beautiful girl in the world?
And if you did, was she crying, crying?
Hey, if you happen to see the most beautiful girl that walked out on
me
Tell her, "I'm sorry."
Tell her, "I need my baby."
Oh.... Won't you tell her that I love her.
If you happen to see the most beautiful girl that walked out on me
Tell her, "I'm sorry."
Tell her, "I need my baby."
Oh.... Won't you tell her that I love her.
2749Re: sineater & skye_ds on the skids again - me & J-Law
Dec. 22, 2004
Date: Wed, 22 Dec 2004 10:56:37 -0800 (PST)
From: "J-Law"
Waxing does hurt. I've only ever had my brows done, and that was
enough to keep me from doing my legs. Much less bikini and
underarms. Yeeeeeeeeooooooooowwwwwwwch!!!
Dawn got a Brazilian bikini wax once, and broke out in all of these
horrid red splotches down there! She had to explain to her boyfriend
that, no, she didn't have V.D. That was pretty much the end of my
secret curiosity/desire to have it done.
The cool thing is, yeah, it does last long. And, eventually, the
hair grows back finer or not at all.
It's funny - even 8 months into it (can you believe that?!) I am
still all hyper about cleaning the house, having dinner on the table
at a certain time, etc. etc. I am tellin' ya. I am a born
housewife. Now all I have to do is win the lottery. :)
You're exactly right about UB and sineater. Just distance yourself
mentally and think happier/more fun thoughts about your own life.
Vivaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Las Vegas!