An earthy meditation on "equanimity"

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I've been trying to get my head around Maitri, which is, in a nutshell, wishing for myself and others: "happiness and the root of happiness," "freedom from suffering and the root of suffering" "Joy" and "Equanimity"

Equanimity has been a tough one. I've been hit hard and often in the last few months with thoughts and feelings of "If Thax doesn't love me, I'll die" and "If Thax leaves me, I'll die,"...and that grasping, clinging, panic, and holding on so desperately and miserably, ironically, LIMITS the love that Thax and I can share. It limits us, period.

I don't know what Pema Chodron would think of this, but I like it.

Thanks to turbojj for the linky.

Comments

[emmainfiniti.livejournal.com]

Interesting article. I am wishing you the best on your spiritual journey.

[bramblekite.livejournal.com]

thank you. It's hard to let go of expectations and damn hard to get rid of shoulds and get over disappointments. But all of those things rob the present moment of joy and love and I sure as hell don't want to do that to my lover or myself. It's like....someone tells me 'emma makes a great chocolate cake' and then you invite me for supper and I'm all like 'oo, i'm gonna get chocolate cakez!' so I spend the whole time focused on that cake, miss out on enjoying a meal you spent time and energy and caring to prepare, ignore interesting conversation, and then we get to dessert, and you decided that you 'always' do chcolate cake and people must be bored of that so you were gonna make cheesecake instead, so the evening ends with me feeling disappointed and resentful and you feeling unappreciated and resentful...when everything was beautiful and tasty and could have been a wonderful time if I had not had my head up my ass with my cake expectations!