evile | 3607Re: the weekend

Oct. 3, 2005

Friday:
Dinner at L&B's, baiting uncle bubba. Kinda fun. No interaction
w/[Cousin B], seating arrangement inconducive to father-son bonding.

No nap, no bellydance & fire show downtown. grumpy.

Saturday:
Yoga
Brunch (Juan in a Million)
AIA tour - houses 1-8
Barton Sprgs - five minutes, then getting out, e saying that was fun,
and off to the rock store
Crystal Works. e taking forever to get a necklace cord tied to the
correct length. I got Indian God magnets for my cube and anointed
them with protection, new beginnings, and hope oils
10 min Nap (more like meditation) & inspiration--hey, I'll call the
hostess & see if there's anything they need that I can bring, and
I'll ask if it's OK to bring [Cousin B]. She said OK, so I called [Cousin B]. He
was spending the night at a friend's. No dice.

shower & dress

Stopped at WF, ran into Rod and Shelley, which was kind of nice. Got
a wrap and a soda which I ate and drank on the way.

party. Arrived out of sorts, hands dirty from wrap. Chance hugged me,
without me having time to fend her off, but then I rejected onyxlynxx's
hug, mostly because my hands were dirty and she was wearing white. I
was ugly and mean and hurt her feelings. I wish I could just have
said "OK, I need to put stuff down and wash my hands first, then can
I have hugs?" instead of being a bitch. I really hate myself for
being like that. And I'm ALWAYS like that.

Sunday:
Brunch at Juan in a Million, again. heavy greasy fat, lousy lousy
service, never want to go there again.
1 house on AIA tour, in Dripping Springs. It was a nice house. Very
open floorplan, would be a good party house.
Best Buy - Elena got a router but then didn't buy it when I didn't
find headphones I wanted.
Laundry
dishes
grocery
called [Cousin B], he was at a haunted house with his friends. I called his
cell, he said 'hello?" and I said "Hey" and then it hung up, so I
waited a minute to see if he'd call me back, he didn't, so I called
him and he said he was at the haunted house. I got the impression he
was annoyed that I called. I won't be calling him again. He can call
me if he gets bored or whatever.

I know he needed to make his own friends and get his own social
circle, and heck, he's probably got a GF by now...I should not let
this hurt my feelings. I still have my own life & friends. Not that
any of them do anything with me, but whatever.