Jul. 21, 2004

J-Law:
*hugs* Definitely let things settle down for a few days.

It's very good that you all were able to have a nice time together,
and Sweetie's sympathy is a good sign...

But him wanting evidence only to ignore it (and leave you feeling
like you've got go all J. Edgar and start keeping a file?!?!) is
total crap.

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evilE wrote:
I spent the morning working & staying away from the
web. It was pretty productive.

I don't know what I want. Do I really want to flush 9
years of my life, or is this thing save-able at all?
We went to dinner & had a nice enough time. He was
very sympathetic about my mercy-fuck money...but I
dont' want to spend the rest of my life confronting
him on his shit and being told that I'm lying, I'm
calling him stupid, and/or having my feelings
dismissed. Nor do I wish to meticulously document
everything to back up my feelings of being dismissed
by him. I said something last night about how every
time I ask him for help with something, he says "wait"
or "just a sec" but when he needs my help, I drop what
I'm doing and come help. He demanded citation of
dates/times/incidents to back this up. But, as with
the calendar, even if I shoved a paper document in his
face, recorded the interaction, he would just dismiss
or ignore it.