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last night

Tue, 24 Jan 2023 15:06:59 GMT

We had dinner with Aunt L and Uncle B to celebrate Brother A's freedom. His original release date was 1/23, but after all the rigamarole his final parole appointment was the 19th so that's his real 'freedom' date. That was nice. It's good to be able to go out in the world again and it was at Arpeggio, one of our favorite places. L. brought me a boxed cake mix , "Dolly Parton's Banana Cake" and a can of "Dolly Parton's buttercream frosting"....apparently I'm supposed to make this abomination and bring her a nice corner piece. LOL. I hate all things artificially banana flavored. I love real fresh bananas and i even like banana bread or banana pancakes/waffles, but not banana pudding, bananas foster, banana candy, ice cream, etc. It's the artificial whatever alkaloid ester chemical shitstorm that I dislike. Anyhoo. I'll make it and Thax and A can eat it and I'll take L&B a big old piece, too. LOL. L was obese for most of her working life and when she retired she lost a lot of weight and now is fairly strict with her eating habits. Good for her but her work arounds for when she wants a sweet are kinda funny :)

We gpt home around 8 and decided to walk dogs before settling in for some TV and bedtime, our usual routine. We were passing by a VRBO house that used to be a 'group home' in our neighborhood when I heard a squirrel doing the little 'distress bark' which I thought was unusual because it was well after dark by then. So I walked over to see if maybe it was fussing because it was trapped, stuck, or had a baby on the ground. I shined my cellphone's flashlight up into the tree and saw two eyes reflecting back at me, a cat lying in a fork of the branches. I didn't see the squirrel. I started looking around under the tree to see if I could see a baby. There was another cat at the base of the tree, looking up. Sunny started barking at the cat and the cat backed off; I thought that was fine, maybe if the cat ran off from the base of the tree the squirrel could get down safely and get to another tree with no cat in it.

Meanwhile, this man from across the street and up a couple of houses came over and started shouting at us, apparently these were his cats and our dog was scaring them, whatever whatever. I tried to explain that i'd heard a squirrel in distress and was trying to find out what was wrong, he yelled at me about Sunny barking and scaring his cats, I tried to explain that the cat was already in the tree (terrorizing the squirrel) when we walked up, he said "I'm done listening to you," or "I'm done with you" or something like that, and "just go away". I said "Ok,fine, god bless you, sir." (sarcastic tone) and started to walk away. He said "fuck you" and that was IT. I yelled "fuck you" back, then he started going off on "You're not a real believe, real good christian with that language," and I was like "FUCK YOU, YOU SAID IT TO ME FIRST!!!"

Meanwhile Thax is speaking in calm conversational tones trying to de-escalate the ridiculous nonsense. I'm walking away, yelling at him "jesus christ, what the fuck is wrong with you," (I don't remember what all I said) and he's yelling 'fuck you" at me and "you trying to fight" at Thax. His teenage (?) son(?) was trying to get him to walk away and I'm yelling shit at him like "Keep your fucking cats in your goddamn house if you dont' want dogs barking at them" and then my grand finale "Go back to New Jersey or wherever the GODDAMN HELL you came from, WE DONT ACT LIKE THIS IN TEXAS!!!!!"

it was fucking ridiculous. We've passed these cats on our walks before, that street is on our regular morning route. The cats like to go under these big arbor vitae trees that are across the street from the man's house, and sometimes they'll be under there when the dogs are sniffing at the trees. he's given us the stinkeye for that before. Not that Boba, the tree pee-er is at all interested in the cats. He just likes to pee on those trees. Sunny would chase a cat if she wasn't leashed. The cats never seem that bothered by it, if he leaves them out at night I'm sure they've dealt with worse--we have raccoons, possums, and coyotes in our neighborhood. Anyway, it was dumb and I'm ashamed and embarassed that I let him get my goat like that. Screeching profanity in the street like a goddamned lunatic.

In one way I'm glad I didn't let him get away with cussing at me and my husband and my dogs, I'm glad I didn't just walk away and let him be abusive...but on the other hand I don't know what I could have or should have said or done to be a better person. Just walk away and let him cuss is probably the best, make him the unequivocal asshole in the situation. But whatever.

It's raining this morning so the dogs don't want to walk, so we wont' be passing his house today. But I guess at some point we'll walk that way again. I guess we'll see what happens. I'm sure his kid was very embarassed to be in that situation too. I hope that guy isn't always so foul and awful. And I hope the squirrel is OK. :/

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2999the HBB hunter

Fri, 27 Aug 2021 22:15:52 GMT

Mar. 3, 2005

Me to J-law:

I'm tired, I stayed up too late last night. It was mostly fun. The
main organizer of the poly big fun campout was at dinner last night
and we were talking and before I knew it, I'd agreed to do a reprise
of my 'edible bedroom delights' workshop that I did the
first/last/only time I went to big fun. wow. hope it goes better
this time, since I know more people now. Last time there were only,
like, 4 people at the workshop, and I'd bought like a hundred bux
worth of goodies. I ended up feeling kind of stupid.

ANYWAY, that was fun. I saw a lot of friends and we had the patio
pretty much to ourselves so I got to circulate and chat, which was
really nice.

I did have one kind of icky experience--met my first HBB (Hot Bi
Babe) Hunter. He was writing a screenplay. About bisexual women. And
wanted to interview many many bisexual women. To make it authentic.
So, please, tell me all the hot juicy details of your sex life,
strange woman I just met 5 minutes ago.

He started out seeming friendly and curious and nice, and then all of
the sudden, POW. It was really disconcerting. Luckily, this gal
nosugarsadded showed up as things were getting uncomfortable, and I gave her
giant hugs and said "Hey" and then he started talking to her. Her
boyfriend oracle_tx was right there, so I figure she'd be OK. plus she's
more of a TMI kind of girl, doesn't mind discussing such personal
things. So hopefully I created a win win there, rather than foisted
off an asshole on a friend.

It would have been perfect if UB had been there, I could have
introduced the two of them, she would have lectured him all night
about her fabulous wonderfulness and the rest of the ladies at dinner
could have escaped unscathed.

UB likes to tell stories about how people are always smarming on her
because they think that being poly, pagan, self-professed bi means
you'll fuck anything. I had never experienced this phenomenon so up
close and personal before. UB says her response is something
like "Yes, I'm bi, poly, pagan, sex positive and frisky, but I won't
fuck you, now go play in traffic."...I really wish I'd actually said
that to him.

Oh, and did I mention? He was expelling quantities of intestinal gas
the ENTIRE time. It was FOUL beyond belief. My nasal cavity is singed.

*shaking head* Ah, what a life.

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1575 Hurting Pace's feelings.

Sun, 10 May 2020 20:08:21 GMT

Aug. 19, 2003

Totally bad timing on that, too, because Pace & Erin just broke up.

But...feh.

It all started with Portal of Evil posting a site of medical
oddities, notably ones centered on female ovary & uterus disorders. I
found some of endometriosis, my personal demon, and posted them in my
LJ, just to sort of refute all that nonsense in C--T about how cool
menstruation is and how awesome the uterus is and how wonderful it is
to give birth and how evil and rotten men are who invented hormonal
birth control and how deluded we women who use it are.

So Pace posts a little flippant "Jealous?" in my comments. No biggie.

My answer was...tactless. Basically I said I didn't understand why
someone would willingly choose to be female. No answer.

And then, on realizing how tactless that was, I also realized that
the womens movement members who believe that womanhood is only
achieved by having a functional uterus are also rejecting women like
Pace, who (for whatever reason) have *chosen* to go through with
various chemical treatments & surgeries in order to be outwardly
female.

I guess I need to try harder to explain/apologize to Pace.

Lots of my friends have hobbies & interests that don't interest me. I
have friends who absolutely *must* attend every weekend of every
renaissance faire. I have friends who are as adamant about being at
HFS stuff. Collecting X men comic books, or all the works of ____
artist. Max is intent on covering himself with tattoos (matching his
outer self to that which he perceives as 'self' or playing "look at
me I'm a freak"?) Not my place to question or judge. People need to
do whatever makes them feel good about themselves & their lives. I
wasn't trying to belittle Pace's choice, just really ... I don't
understand.

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EJ entries Aug. 19, 2003

Sun, 10 May 2020 20:05:01 GMT

1572fuckwittage with e

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evilE

Aug. 19, 2003

--- e wrote:

Subject: Water Fun Sunday
Date: Tue, 19 Aug 2003 09:39:24 -0500

---------------------------------

Hola non-biking friends,

You both have suggested interested in playing in the
water. I am planning on going to either Barton Springs
(more likely of the two) or Hamilton's Pool Sunday
afternoon for some nice relaxing, cool, wet fun and I
wanted to see you. Either one or both of you
interested in joining me? If so please let me know a
good time for you.

=)

e

===============================================
Forwarded to J-Law with this message:

Date: Tue, 19 Aug 2003 09:45:24 -0700 (PDT)
From: e
Subject: Fwd: Water Fun Sunday
To: J-Law

Argh. I dont' know why I even bother. This all started
with "Wanna do a girls night out on Friday or
Saturday?"....so I said Friday would be best for me
(was thinking of going to the beach or at least
swimming somewhere out of town on Saturday)...so this
is her final plan from all that, apparently.

It is not a "Night", It is not on Friday or Saturday.
So why the FUCK did she even bother asking for input
on when/where? And, more importantly, WHY DO I KEEP
BOTHERING?

Anyhoo...how is your Tuesday going?

Sweetie is working on about day 2 or 3 of not brushing his
hair, day 5 of not-bathing and not wearing clean
clothes, and it's been at least a week since he
shaved. I am sorry he is unemployed & feeling bad
about himself, but this is just getting NASTY. WTF. I
have been out of work before, but at least I was
clean, if depressed and miserable & self-hating.

=E

1573Re: fuckwittage with e

Aug. 19, 2003

Date: Tue, 19 Aug 2003 10:22:42 -0700 (PDT)
From: J
Subject: Re: Fwd: Water Fun Sunday
To: me

I have one thing to say re: e, which is: "Non-biking
friends" ?!?!?!?!?!? She could just as easily say, "less interesting
friends," "non-real friends" .....

I am very sorry to hear about Sweetie's weirdness - that must be so hard
to deal with. *hug* I am hoping things get better for both your
sakes.

My Tuesday is going okay - a little slow, actually, but in kind of a
scary way. Like, there's something I could/should be doing but
somehow forgot or ?? At least I can take a few moments to pack,
though - I've hardly done anything on that front.

Upside: I found a job listing for the Courts Editor of Law.com,
which is a legal news, etc. website geared primarily toward lawyers.
It's been around for awhile (not like a .com startup). It sounds
pretty cool. The headline is: Have a law degree but don't want to
practice? Uh, yeah. Better finish up my resume before things get
nutty.

XOXOXO! Love you!

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1565 last night at cafe mundi

Sun, 10 May 2020 19:51:20 GMT

Aug. 15, 2003

I am still seething over the events last night at the bellydance show
I attended. Chinless (apparently also spineless & possibly brainless)
Moo, very pretty but apparently dumb-as-a-stick (and maybe non-
English-speaking) Duh, and their two precious adorable offspring
ruined 3/4 of the show for everyone else. Selfish fucking breeders.
Oh, the daughters were cute enough, about 3 and 6, wearing matching
little patriotic sundresses, hair in ringlets, cyoot button noses,
the works. (I am reminded of the adage that even the Devil can take a
pleasing form if it suits his purposes....)
So, a few minutes into the 2nd dancer's performance, these assholes
show up, and immediately start scraping chairs across the ground,
arranging things to suit their breederness, while the oldest whines
and screeches various questions and comments: "What's he
holding? /What's she wearing? /*heehehee*--look at her tummy!" ad
nauseam.

Then the younger one starts screeching wordlessly, so Moo gets baby
on her lap and starts holding the baby's hands, waving them in time
to the music, punching me in the arm on every beat. After about 3
blows, I got out of my chair, moved it away, and re-seated myself.
Moo had the grace to mutter 'sorry' at me at that point. Stupid
bitch. Then the oldest gets started again: "Which one is teacher?
Where's teacher?" bla bla.

Then the youngest is "huuuunnngreeeeee!" So they give her something
which she proceeds to eat with her hands, then of course starts
dancing near Moo's legs, and wiping her slimy little paws on my
pants. More than once. Finally, I made vague 'shoo-ing' motions at
her, which seemed effective.

Oldest finally fucked off, to go play with the 3 young bellydance
students in the audience. Apparently, the girls were friendly enough
to give her a coin belt to wear, and they were having a fine old
time.

The second half begins, the oldest pipes up with "I ALREADY saw HER
dance!" Half the audience laughs, the other half 'shushes' her. The
youngest keeps running onto the rug where the dancers are performing.
I was waiting for one of the dancers to kick her in the head, but it
didn't happen. Moo kept rescuing her in the nick of time. Never heard
her say NO to this kid, she just smiled and grabbed her off the rug.
They were both acting like it was some kind of cute 'chase' game.
WTF!? Would they act like this if this were an indoor performance,
and pwecious babygirl was running onto the damn STAGE?

Then the section of the show I don't really care for begins: the
young (like age 6-10) dancers get up to do short solo dances.
Apparently they've offered to let the older kid with her borrowed
coin belt dance. The first dance student goes out to dance, and the
older brat goes into Nuclear Meltdown mode. I don't know what the
deal was, whether she wanted to go first, or whether she didn't want
to dance after all, or what, but CLUELESS damn parents grab her and
take her to the area behind the audience, still well within hearing
range, while she literally ROARS, screams, and hits and kicks her
parents for a good 5 minutes. Then they take her out to the parking
lot, where, due to my exceptional hearing, I can *still* hear her
screaming. Finally FINALLY, they fucking left (not bothering to
return the borrowed coin belt, of course. There goes somebody's $50
dance accessory),

I have an inspiration from all of this: "Discipline On Call". If
parents are too 'nice' (read: 'useless') to beat their own children,
they can fuckin call me. And then maybe we'll finally get some good
use out of those ridiculous assholes we occasionally meet in public
who tell their kids shit like "If you don't behave, that mean lady is
going to spank you"...make that shit TRUE. And then Moo and Duh can
still be the kiddies Bestest Fwiends, at least until kiddie is old
enough to understand who the real bad guy is in this situation.

There were a couple of nice things yesterday evening: at the
intermission, Z Helene said hello & was nice to me, even though I was
giving out major "Get the Fuck Away From Me/ I'm Invisible" vibes due
to the hideous brats. That speaks majorly of her graciousness. (she
*did* ask if she knew me, and I was all hurt & offended as usual when
someone wonderful doesn't remember boring old dumpy invisible me, but
what can I expect? I was putting out 'invisible' vibes!) And at the
end, when I was totally frazzled & saying my goodbyes to S. (Never
thought I'd envy someone their deafness!), Valeda invited me to come
up and dance at the 'end of show jam' they do. Very sweet of her.
She is a beautiful person, inside & out.

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EJ - entries for Mar. 31, 2003

Fri, 08 May 2020 17:15:03 GMT

1320 awful drama

Mar. 31, 2003

Me to X, this a.m.

Are you going to come to Central Market this Wednesday?
===============

X to me:

No I can't go this Wednesday. M is out of town
and comes home wednesday evening, so i have to be
home to see him. Sorry.

========
Me to X:

No problem. See ya Friday, then.

I am sorry not to have a plan in mind for Friday
yet--I still haven't gotten any info from the Escape
Weekend people...

I will get in touch with you as soon as I know
something from them as far as check-in times, etc.

XO!

=E
==============
X replied:

Ok then, when you know something just let me know. I
have a really big favor to ask of you and it
involves keeping a secret from my husband. If you
are opposed to that let me know, if not I will ask
the favor.
=======================

...I paused. Then sent the whole exchange & a draft of my response to
J-Law for her opinion. Here is what she said:

That's good. It really is an imposition on the friendships involved
here for her to say that she has a secret she wants kept from M,
even without revealing the substance of the secret.

Now, you know that there is something going on that, arguably, M
should know. That, in at of itself, is a risky thing, I think.

You might toss something in there about that. The thing is, if she
really wants something kept secret, she needs to keep it to herself.
Once she tells anyone else, whether it is a gossipy flake, or someone
trustworthy like you, it is no longer a secret.

Things are nuts here.

I am about to have an aneurysm. Marie says my eyes are bugging outta
my head like a cartoon character.

==========================
So here's what I ended up sending to X:

Date: Mon, 31 Mar 2003 10:31:42 -0800 (PST)

I love you and I'm your friend. Whether or not I
approve of all of your decisions/actions in life, I
will always love you and care about you.

But...I'm also M's friend & I also love him & care
about him.

And I get the impression that this is not a nice
"let's surprise M with something good" sort of
secret, but a bad secret that would hurt his feelings
if he knew, and might make him mad at me if he ever
found out I knew. Not a good secret for me to know, no
matter how nosey curious I may be.

I'm sorry, but I can't help you if it's a 'bad secret'
that will be hurtful to M if he finds it out. I'm
not even really comfortable knowing that you have a
secret from M, even though I don't even know what
the secret is.

Love ya (really do!)

=E

1321 Re: awful drama

Mar. 31, 2003

X wrote:

It is not that serious of a secret, I just want a day alone and I
was thinking of staying at my friend's house for a night. ( she is
out of town). M has become very possessive of my time. And he is
almost never gone. I am never, ever by myself. If I asked him for a
night alone it would hurt his feelings, and he would feel that since
I am already going away with you that should be my time. But it
won't be. It will be my time with you. So I wanted to tell M that
i was getting back on Monday instead of Sunday. Go to my friend's
house and just be in solitude. Are you uncomfortable with that kind
of secret? It is really no big deal, I have no big dark secrets from
my husband. I'm just looking for a lil me time.
---------------------------

My reply to X:

Maybe we should caravan down there so you can leave whenever you want
and go do whatever you want and I can just honestly say I don't know
nothin' bout nothin' if anybody asks.
=-=========-=-=-

Me to J-Law:

This is such a LIE. You don't know somebody your
entire life without being able to read 'em like a
book. She wants to spend the day fucking someone,
probably the musician guy she promised M she'd
never see again after he caught her fooling around.

And it's not like they don't have a flyer for RRR
great escape weekend that has the weekend spelled out:
check in Friday afternoon,dinner friday nite, Saturday
3 meals are served, there is a trail ride, there are
massages, facials, manicures avail. all day at the big
house, the van runs in to town for shopping all day,
Sunday is breakfast/brunch and leave whenever you feel
like. Nothing about Monday in the flyer, so very very
easy to get caught LYING!

1322 Re: awful drama

Mar. 31, 2003

I replied again with this: (probably should have skipped my first
reply about caravaning, etc.--fingers crossed that she'll go ahead
and flake so I can find a replacement!!!)
==============================

I think on the orange flyer for RRR weekends that I
gave you, it gives the itenerary as Friday-Sunday
only. So, if Mike was looking at a flyer, it would be
pretty obvious that you were lying to him.

If you'd rather spend the weekend at your friend's
house, I can probably still find someone else to take
your spot at RRR.

I can certainly understand being stressed and wanting
to be away from everyone for a while.

Let me know if that's a better option for you.

=E

1323 Re: awful drama

Mar. 31, 2003

J-Law's reply:

AND - very easy to assume/guess/surmise whatever that you were in
collusion with her on the lying, whether you are silent, or, worse,
she sucks you into the position of backing her up after the fact.

In fact, I would watch out for something like that - she takes
her "day off from M," tells him it was for your girly weekend, he
knows that's crap, and assumes you were in on it and/or X asks you
to back her up, either privately, or in front of M.

The suck thing now is, you didn't want to know the secret anyway.
Now that she has told you this story, which may or may not be the
real secret, she has stuck you in a really crappy position.

1324 Re: awful drama

Mar. 31, 2003

--- In evilEJournal@yahoogroups.com.au, "evilE <evile@f...>"
<evile@f...> wrote:

J-Law's reply:
>
> AND - very easy to assume/guess/surmise whatever that you were in
> collusion with her on the lying, whether you are silent, or, worse,
> she sucks you into the position of backing her up after the fact.
>
> In fact, I would watch out for something like that - she takes
> her "day off from Mike," tells him it was for your girly weekend,

he> knows that's crap, and assumes you were in on it and/or X asks

you> to back her up, either privately, or in front of Mike.

>
> The suck thing now is, you didn't want to know the secret anyway.
> Now that she has told you this story, which may or may not be the
> real secret, she has stuck you in a really crappy position.

My reply to J-Law:

Date: Mon, 31 Mar 2003 12:28:42 -0800 (PST)

Exactly. I suggested to her that she just go do
whatever this weekend, and I'd find somebody else to
go with me to RRR.

I told her I didn't want to know the secret, she
violated my clearly-stated boundary and told me
anyway,and now I'm in a total no-win situation,
because I know *somthing* M doesn't, even if it's
not the truth. And, yes, no matter how honest I am, I
look like a liar, no matter what happens at this
point.

I am not going to go tattling to M, I'm not going
to say anything to anybody, but I still feel like
shit.

:(

And to top it all off, I have to find someone else to
go to RRR with me this weekend!
----------

My next email to X:

Date: Mon, 31 Mar 2003 12:35:52 -0800 (PST)
Subject: *sigh*

I asked you NOT to tell me your secret, you told me
anyway, and now I'm in a 'damned if you do, damned if
you don't' position.

I am a grownup, I'm not going to go 'tattling' on you
to M. But what am I supposed to say now if he asks
me about our weekend?

You have put me in a very bad, uncomfortable position,
and I do NOT appreciate it.

At this point, I think I would prefer it if you'd make
other plans for your weekend and let me find someone
else to go to RRR with me.
================

I sent this to J-Law at some point, too:

Date: Mon, 31 Mar 2003 12:18:17 -0800 (PST)
Subject: I'm sorry

I know you're having a crap day at work, so I am
trying not to pester.

I think I'll go ahead and start trying to find another
person to fill in for X at the Great Escape
Weekend--I can't get a refund, but I can substitute
someone else in her place.

I can't think of any girlfriends I want to spend the
weekend with, except Pace & Stephanie, who are both
transgendered. Due to the shower situation in these
cabins, I don't know how cool that'd be. Plus they're
lesbians. So...maybe not :)

Someday this will be so funny! It's all material.

1325 Re: awful drama

Date: Mon, 31 Mar 2003 12:59:38 -0800 (PST)
From: me
Subject: feh
To: J-Law

She called my cell phone and says she's going to tell
M 'everything' and I will not be in a position to
have to lie or keep silent or anything. She will 'ask
him' about Monday and he will know what she's doing.

Which...is a lie. She told me that because she hedged
her bet wrong and NO, my curiousity will not override
my basic hatred of lying and deceiving. But now that
she's lied to me again about telling M the truth,
her bases are covered and when/if she gets caught, she
will take all the blame on herself and be able to tell
anyone that I didn't know what she was up to, and if I
want to get off the hook, I can say that X lied to
me, too.

She is complainign because M won't leave the house,
won't let her leave teh house, and I'm sitting here
thinking..."you knew he was jealous, you knew he'd be
completely unglued if you fucked around on him, and
you did it anyway...bed. made. lay down!"

She hedged another bet by telling me that M's
coming home from Dallas (job interview? something?)
early this evening and he might not let her go at all
this weekend.

I asked her to please let me know as soon as possible
so I can find a replacement if that happens.

Feh. This Sucks. I am NEVER speaking to her again
after this. I am serious.
--------------

I have no more coherent thoughts on this. She only wants to go to RRR
because it's her 'birthday present'. not because I'm gonna be there. :
( I give up.

1326Re: awful drama

Mar. 31, 2003

From:J-Law
Date: Mon, 31 Mar 2003 13:16:33 -0800 (PST)
Subject: Re: f
To: me

Jesus.

Well - she fucked around on him. Does she actually expect him to not
question where she goes, what she does, with whom? I can see how that
might get to be overbearing and unreasonable.... but the mere fact
that he is concerned is not at all surprising or wrong. And, if he is
getting over the top/scary about it, then she needs to talk it out
with him.

They seriously need counseling.

And, all of her lying and maneuvering about this weekend is just her
avoiding the real problem - all the effort she is putting in to
getting what she wants dishonestly could be put into being
straightforward and convincing and/or heal her marriage.

I think there is a conventional wisdom that says married people are
more adult than single people of the same age. But most married
couples around my age strike me as being extremely infantile in terms
of not airing their feelings, working on problems, bla bla bla. They
walk down the aisle and expect to live happily ever after without
actually putting in the time and effort.

Anyway. As for her bet-hedging.... apart from its general suckiness,
still sucks for you because you know something's going on... it's
true, at least you can say, hey, she lied to me too (for which she
will never forgive you, if it comes to your having to defend
yourself).... but you are also stuck with this incomplete knowledge,
suspicions, whatever, as well as the fact that she seriously imposed
on you and your friendship.

I had an dream last night in which we took a trip to France. After
Sweetie gets full-time permanent again, let's go.

XOXOXO!!!!!! Love ya!

============================
From:J-Law
Subject: Re: I'm sorry
To: Me

If I wasn't paying rent out of this paycheck, I would totally fly out
there.

Today sucks. There aren't words.

Wait. Yes there are. Single Malt Scotch. A tiny dash of Fiji water, a
coupla small ice cubes. I bought the Scotch on my lunch break -
amazing I got a break - and will make the above described drink the
second I walk in the door.

Anyway - John Walker (wine shop) is having a scotch event, and when I
walked by, I remembered bequeathing my Laphroaig to Rick... and
hence, lacked Scotch.... so I bought some (Dalwhinnie, this time).
AND, chatted up Daniel, the very cute and very nice manager (who
produces his own Zinfandel!).

Oh - we started chatting because he was talking to another customer
about Syrah, and he showed her one that I bought there a couple of
weeks ago, so I told her how much I loved it, so she bought it. After
she left, Daniel said, I should hire you on the spot. And I said,
really? Because I am thinking that I might like to get into the wine
biz... because the lagl biz is killing me. So, he asked for my card
and is going to call me when they have openings.

I figure I could do it part time to see if I really like it, get a
feel for the biz, learn more about wine...

Plus - I told him who are wine guru was (Anthony Vecino) so he could
call him and sell him some wine. We have an account there, but, for
some reason, haven't bought much recently. So, it would be totally
normal for Daniel to call in a customer servicy kind of way.
====================
My reply:

I am totally down with the France trip. Let's go!

I am also with ya on the scotch. My father brought me some nice 16 yo
Bushmill's. Once I get my credit card info updated for my auto-pay of
long distance & gym, I'm getting drunk as a Lord.

I am so dreading this weekend, however it turns out:

endure 2.5 days of chatting about the weather with X, because
there won't be anything else I can talk about

endure 2.5 days of hanging out by myself because X flakes at the
last minute

or...maybe she'll flake earlier and I can scramble around begging
people to go with me & feeling pathetic and friendless, NOT because I
have no friends but because they have lives and can't make last
minute plans like that.

*sigh*

*hugs* thank you so much for being there for me. I love you more than
I can ever express.

=E
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1327scopes

Mar. 31, 2003

I have the most godawful headache imaginable.

-----
Taurus
Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
This is a great day to deal with legal matters of any kind, dear
Taurus, including plans for a wedding if one is in the offing! Your
financial situation should be thriving and stable, and long-term
educational goals may come to the forefront. At this time you should
be strongly focused on matters of any kind that are particularly
important to you now, and work performed today towards that end
should be accomplished quickly and efficiently. Go to it!

Gemini
Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
A keen ability on your part to blend the worlds of intellect and
intuition could well surface today, dear Gemini. The ability to focus
both these methods of perception into material reality is apt to give
a boost to your career and educational efforts, and also could
enhance your romantic life. Anything begun or completed today has an
advantage. Try to look closely at this new tendency and make it last.
It's definitely a plus!

Personalized:

evilE
Sun Sign: Taurus
Rising Sign: Sagittarius

You awake this morning feeling happy and enthusiastic, evilE. Your
intuition is telling you that you will achieve whatever you set your
mind to. Whatever your goals are, whether they are success with your
career, in your studies or in your personal life, you are bound to
succeed. If you don't have a significant someone by your side to
support your steady progress, all signs indicate that you will meet
someone soon. If you already have a mate, lucky you!

Your Rising Sign
Self-expression is important to you, and you aren't afraid to show
the world who you really are. At the same time, you are anxious to
impress those around you, and as a result you may not project an
accurate picture of your true self. If you are going to flaunt your
creativity and how you think about yourself and the world, make sure
you do so in an honest manner. Today's sextile between Neptune and
the Sun is likely to put a veil of haze over the truth of the
situation.

Daily Numeroscope - March 31, 2003

Life Path Number: 6 [ Edit Your Numerological Information ]
Heavy thoughts may be present for you on this 4-Day, evilE. Perhaps
this will come about as a result of a problem you are facing and need
to think about. If this is the case, this vibration's energy will
lend a great deal of support to helping you identify the choices you
have. Don't hesitate to write your thoughts and ideas down. This can
help form a course of action. Don't fight it - use it to your
advantage. See what you can work out, Six.

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ErikaJournal 2/4/2003

Wed, 06 May 2020 21:51:07 GMT

1174 e got laid off

From: E
To: e
Subject: Re: I just got laid off
Date: Mon, 3 Feb 2003 09:45:23 -0800 (PST)
*hugs* Oh, sweetheart! I'm so sorry to hear that!!
That totally sucks!
I will start keeping an eye out for postings you might want to try.
Do you need help finding a roommate or roommates to help with your
house payment?
Let me know what I can do to help!
--- e wrote: ---------------------------------
thanks so much. currently my friend grant is living here. he just
got back from the peace corps so he is not working & not paying so
for now I am paying all the bills. thanks for the link, I registered
for unemployment but I think I need to register to work? what is the
link for that? I sent out two resumes, just to ppl I know, please
tell me what I need to do now for TWC? thanks
----------------------
my reply:

I'm really sorry, but I don't work on that side of the TWC 'house'. I
have NO idea how to file for unemployment or register for work...I
really don't. I am hoping there is an 800# for you to call and speak
to someone in the tele-center who can help you with any more
questions.

=======================================================
me to Jen:
I am beating myself in the head this a.m.: e got laid off
yesterday and asked me for advice on how to file for unemployment. I
told her I didn't know anything about that part of TWC, but sent her
the general TWC website. She wrote back and said thanks, and then
said something about how she thought she needed a different web site
to register for work,and would I send her that web address, please?
OK...what part of "I don't do that, and I don't know anything about
that part of TWC" is so damned hard for someone with a fricken'
MASTERS degree to understand? I replied nicely, said again I was
sorry, but I didn't have any experience at all in that side of
the "house" and told her that maybe there's an 800# listed on the TWC
website to call? I have no clue. I don't do that. No good deed goes
unpunished. Try to help and get all sucked in with a buncha stupid
questions I can't answer. :( I am sure you get that kind of thing all
the time, with people asking you questions about specialized areas of
the law you haven't ever worked with...it's very frustrating. Not
that you don't WANT to help, but...you just don't know the answer, ya
know? And it's always better to admit that you have no clue rather
than give bad information. At least that's what I think.

175 feh

Feb. 4, 2003

so....all my friends have gone high-maintenance apparently; X with
her ridiculous Pace-groping drama and losing her rrr paperwork (which
I wanted to send off LAST MONTH), wah wah. e with her RL problems
of having just bought a house, getting laid off and supporting a
deadbeat roommie. J with her house-buying stuff.

I stayed up too late Saturday for Pace's party. I got up fairly early
for the play on Sunday. I stayed up too late Sunday for Spike & Mike.
I stayed up too late last night because J called at 9, just as I
was settling down to read a bit and go to sleep early, and we talked
until almost 11:30.

I am fucking exhausted. I don't have anything to give them or do for
them...I just don't.

annnd Tom's pager went off just before 6 this a.m....*sigh* I really
wanted that last 5 min. of sleep.

1176 more feh

Feb. 4, 2003

Got this email from X:
======================

Subject: Max's yahoo ID
Date: Tue, 4 Feb 2003 09:21:01 -0600

I need it. Please . Soon.

X
=======================
Replied thusly:

I don't have it.

It might be something like "peglegasus" but I really don't know.

sorry.
==============
Forwarded her email to J with this note:

You know...I'm probably just being ultra-touchy
because I havent' gotten to bed at a reasonable hour
for several days running, and I'm just having some
sort of 'issue' with her in general, but this struck
me as very incredibly fucking rude.

Am I just nuts?
================
J said:

It is incredibly fucking rude. A normal person would say, hey, I need
to email Max about an old friend of his I ran into (or whatever),
what is his yahoo id?
================

What the fuck is wrong with X??

And why do I keep bothering with her? We haven't been right or good
in a long time.

1177 Re: more feh

Feb. 4, 2003

My reply to J:

Thanks for the reality check.

I think this is another drama-stirring moment. She
wants me to ask her WHY she's asking for Max's info.
She wants me to speculate and be jealous or whatever
the fuck.

Whatever. I am not going to play the same kinds of
jealousy games she plays with M (poor man).

If she or Max wants me to know what's up, they'll tell
me, and I'm sure it's something stupid anyway. Plus,
I know from experience that Max isn't that great in
the sack; so she can have him for all I care :P

=E
------------------------------------------------
J:

LMAO! Poor Max.

This is definitely all about X stirring up drama and wanting to be
the center of some silly little intrigue.

1178Re: more feh

Feb. 4, 2003

another email to J:

My theory on max/x is that she wants him to do something for her
computer for free. If he's dumb enough to let himself be used by her,
that's his problem.

=E
---------------------------------
Her reply:

Exactly.
=============

[takes a sucker to know one...here I am letting her use me endlessly
and angsting over her getting another sucker on the lists. whatever.]

1179Re: more feh

Feb. 4, 2003

Oh, on the max/x thing, btw, I don't even know
max's yahoo id, so in this particular case I couldn't
come a-runnin' when massa snapped her fingers, anyway.
:P And she, of course, hasn't replied at all, not even
a 'thanks anyway' or 'who would have that info?' or
anything.

Who the fuck does she think she is, anyway? Just
because we have history she doesn't have to employ
common courtesy?

Ah well, she wants me riled, so I am not going to go
there.

I just identified the possible reasons for me feeling
that things are 'off' between me & her:

I realized that neither she nor M nor goddessdaughter have
written me a 'thank you' note for taking that
mannerless slob-child to Vegas. Not even an email.

[they haven't even spoken to me, other than the reply to my joke
wherein she told me she lost her paper, and a little bit at the party-
-I wonder if they're mad at me for something? I don't really care &
can't be bothered to chase them around asking if they're mad at me;
if they're not going to speak to me, so what.]

M kept 'joking', telling everyone at Saturday's
party about how I took his kid to Vegas and turned her
loose on the streets with $20 to spend. SO Not Funny.
I spent every waking moment with that kid for 3 days.
I didn't even leave the room to go gamble after she
went to bed. Oh, wait, I may have left her at the
table for a second while I went to get bread or
dessert or something when we were at a buffet. How
rotten of me.

Rudest damn people ever.

I will feel bad for losing contact with sweet little
Jordan if I have to cut them off, but I'm getting to
the end of my rope (you've heard this all before)...I
dunno, maybe I'm just blowing off steam, or maybe I
really need to just cut my losses and go on.

*sigh* stupid x drama. why am I letting it get to
me??

1180Re: more feh

Feb. 4, 2003

J sez:

X, M and their uncouth carpet monkeys can shove it.

You're right to be peeved about the thank-you note.... and when/if
they question why you have cut off/minimized contact with them, you
might say something about it.

I totally understand that her drama gets to you - it's always awful
to witness your loved ones' rudeness, or to find yourself on the
receiving end of it. Moreover, you've known her a long time, but
y'all are in different places in your lives now. You realize it, and
have your own internal struggles with it.... I don't know that X
realizes it.

As for sweet little Jordan... he may be sweet now.... but unless he
was blessed with really great coping skills and an independent
streak.... I can see him not turning out very well; clearly, a large
portion of Xs motherly energies are focused on Princess .... it would
be next to impossible for the other kids not to feel like crap about
it - and it could impact them for a long time to come unless they
learn to deal with it constructively.

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