evile

3784Re: mercury retrograde or something

2023-08-17T14:40:13Z

15 Nov. 7:08 am

[Aunt L] called after I wrote this and asked to borrow some beading
tools. I will take them over today when I get [Cousin B] for the full moon
gathering (looks like it's not gonna be much of a gathering. Me and
[Cousin B], Elena's got a class, Maggiemaepisces rsvpd but I don't think she can get up
the hill, Eric B said he has a class and might show up later. feh.)

Anyway, she said she was sorry [Cousin B] had pooped out on me. I told her I
should have gone and I was mad at myself for being so dependent on
others to motivate myself and she was all like 'you can always go by
yourself another time' and I got (irrationally) angry and said "no,
no I can't. The reason I have Krav scheduled certain times is because
I'm busy the other nights" and then she backpedaled and said she
meant I could go twice on the nights I'm available (um, no).. it just
made me mad. She had no business apologizing on [Cousin B]'s behalf. She has
no business enabling him to be a worthless piece of crap like Uncle Bubba
and [brother A]. I HATE to see it. HATE it. But there's fuck-all I can do if
[Cousin B] has decided to be unreliable, lazy, and worthless, and nothing I
can do to keep [Aunt L] from encouraging/enabling/pandering to it.

God damn it. It just makes me sick and sad.

And I'm still fucking mad at myself for not going to class on my own.

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ICQ W/A 5/4

2021-09-03T17:30:59Z

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evilE

May 4, 2004

evile: Whee! I (hopefully) got registered for a class :)
SkyeDS: which one?
evile: Krav Maga. :) I've been wanting to take it for forever
SkyeDS: what is it
evile: Self Defense/martial art thingy
evile: My 'backup' if the Krav Maga class is full or cancelled is a
Western riding class.
SkyeDS: they provide horse I take it
evile: yup
evile: (not buying a horse just to take a class, in any case)
SkyeDS: lol how much are they charging
evile: $128 for a 5 week session, 1 hour per class/week
SkyeDS: that's not bad at all
evile: I need to bring you the class schedule book. UT sent me 2.
Both to my home addy. I think there's probably another lurking at the
PO box
SkyeDS: most lessons are $35 for half hour and $50 for full
evile: The Krav Maga is $134, so I needed to find something close in
price if the substitution took place & UT neglected to refund the
difference.
evile: I will be happy with whichever class I get.
evile: Unfo, the Krav Maga (if I get it) happens the same night as
party planning 101, so I did not want to mess things up by signing up
for a class I wouldn't be able to get to if my first choice comes
through.
SkyeDS: :-/
evile: s*it happens, I guess. If it's offered again in Fall, I may do
it then.
SkyeDS: methinks you could teach parties 101
evile: As a former teacher, you know that there is a *world* of
difference between knowing something and being able to teach it.
Teaching is a whole different skill, which I don't think I possess.
SkyeDS: teaching a class is actually a good way to learn more about
what you already know
evile: Trial by Fire, more like. My soapmaking class was a total
disaster, so I can't imagine I'd do that to myself again anytime soon.
evile: I feel bad about it, but OTOH, there's no shame in not being
able to do everything perfectly...I'm human, I don't know everything.
That's life.
SkyeDS: nod
evile: With that in mind, knowing its not a skill I possess, I am not
going to put myself into a situation where the best possible outcome
is failure, ya know?
SkyeDS: true
evile: That's the secret to appearing to be invincible & perfect--
know what you can do & CANT do & never fuck up in front of people :P
SkyeDS: except I'm always fucking up in front of people lol
evile: hehe. It doesn't kill ya...I just hate to do it, personally. I
don't have the ego strength to fuck up & deal with it gracefully.
evile: I don't forgive myself for fucking up publically...which is
stupid and useless.
SkyeDS: me either
evile: I'm actually terrified to take this class--I'm sure I'll be
the most uncoordinated fatty in there. But...it needs to be done.
evile: I've suspected for about 3 yrs now that one of the big reasons
I stay fat is to keep people from hitting on me &/or outbulk the
people I fear. So...step 1 towards having a better self-image is
knowing I can kick anyone's ass, anytime, no matter how big they are
or how big/small I am.
SkyeDS: <medicate myself with food, simple.
evile: I am sure I have multiple issues tied in to the fat thing, but
hopefully once I knock out some of the bigger bugaboos, the smaller
ones will fall into place.
evile: No telling. It's been frustrating to intellectually identify
problems and not be able to blast out the undermining emotions.
SkyeDS: there is a book called It's not what you're eating it's
what's eating you
evile: I've probably read it.
evile: I saw Dr. D on Friday, got my weight & BP. My weight is the
same as a month ago, but I've gone from 120/70 to 100/60. Took my
measurements Sunday & I've lost half an inch from my upper arms.
Tennis has apparently been paying off in the cardio dept....
SkyeDS: :)
evile: All the lab work before surgery shows my cholesterol is good,
liver, kidneys, etc. all good. So, even at 50-60 lbs overweight, I'm
perfectly healthy. Which is good, but I still want to lose weight.
SkyeDS: nods
evile: I'm probably the target demographic for 'fat
acceptance'...there is no reason on earth I should be unhappy with my
body--it's 100% healthy. BUT...
evile: Oh well. More tennis. Less cookie dough. We'll get there...
SkyeDS: :)
evile: If I wasn't going on vacation next week, I would *so* be
playing hooky today..darn this work ethic!!
SkyeDS: lol
evile: I went out to feed the birds this a.m. and just felt so nice
being out in the yard, *sigh*
SkyeDS: beautiful day
SkyeDS: had a great time last night at fighter practice
evile: cool :)
SkyeDS: rode easily half a dozen kids around and half that many
adults.
evile: how fun!
SkyeDS: Raj was in "look at me I'm an Arabian mode"
evile: heh.
SkyeDS: gettingn some bites on my work at home paralegal stuff
SkyeDS: if I can make more than $12 hour at it, I hate to do it
SkyeDS: but gas is getting bad
evile: yeah...
evile: Sweetie says he's sending off for his grease tank next month so he
can convert the vanagon to biodiesel/greasel
SkyeDS: cool
evile: I'll believe it when I see it, but it would be cool...
evile: We are going on a year for getting rid of the blue trooper (2
months is what he said)
SkyeDS: have heard that before lol
evile: yup
evile: There are causes & effects in all things, even relationships.
I understand this, maybe eventually Sweetie will as well....
evile: I might not have much room to talk--my work room has been
consistently filthy & unusable for an entire year now. ...but that's
just me fucking myself, not me making a promise to someone else and
fucking them.
SkyeDS: nofd
SkyeDS: err nods
evile: sineater asked me about [brother A]'s wedding plans...I don't have
anything except the date. July 10. I would have thought some kind of
invite should have gone out by now...but I haven't seen or heard
anything.
SkyeDS: I thought it as postponed
evile: Like I said, I haven't seen or heard anything from anyone.
Some night when I have 4 hours to spare, I'll call down to San
Antonio & listen to [brother A] & The Rubber Pig talk at me & hopefully sift some
useful info out of it.
evile: I hate being on the phone...the only people I really like
talking to on the phone are the people I will not see or hear from
any other way (Mom, [sister H], G/stepdad, J-Law, Dee)...and even with them I
don't call that often.
SkyeDS: nods
evile: Oh well, maybe I'll call [brother A] this weekend, when I've got some
time.
evile: I went ahead and chose the riding class that wouldn't
interfere with the date I thought was the wedding date...so I'm
covered, either way :P
SkyeDS: :)
SkyeDS: need to check my calendar 2
SkyeDS: not positive but I think there's something goin that weekend
SkyeDS: but no reason sineater has to go with me
SkyeDS: or me with him
evile: yup.
evile: Keep me posted, if anybody needs a ride to the wedding or
whatever.
SkyeDS: if it goes forward and the date clashes could you take sineater?
SkyeDS: if I like dropped him off at your place before I left?
evile: absolutely. No problem. We have the guest room, so depending
on time/logistics, he could crash here, too.
SkyeDS: I think that's the weekend of Coronation
evile: aha
SkyeDS: yep it is.
SkyeDS: I suppose I'm evil for wanting to go to coronation instead of
to a wedding where I don't know the bride.
evile: nope. If I could get away with it, I wouldn't go either.
evile: But whatever...I will be there if [brother A] wants me to be.
SkyeDS: [brother A] is your family
SkyeDS: I consider [brother A] family too, but I am an outlaw inlaw
evile: Well, you & [brother A] aren't close & never were. sineater & [brother A] were
at one point...
SkyeDS: he has always been kind to me
SkyeDS: sineater isn't easy to be close to.
evile: I think you are to [brother A] as I am to...Stephanie, Maybe. We see
each other at family stuff, but it wasn't important to her for me to
be at her wedding, or to know when she had her kid(s?), etc.
evile: (Stephanie, sineater's cousin, not Stephanie my deaf girlfriend)
evile: There's no active dislike there, we enjoy each other's company
when we see each other, but we don't have a personal connection
beyond that of step/marriage
SkyeDS: nope
SkyeDS: and I don't think [brother A] will get his feelings hurt if I'm not
there.
evile: heh I was just about to say that :)
SkyeDS: besides, if I were there more likely than not I'd just put my
foot in it anyway
evile: No tellin. I don't imagine anybody else will get a word in
edgewise, maybe the officiant. It'll be The Rubber Pig center stage and we get
to be the wordless audience.
evile: She says her whole family is talky like she is. So ...we'll
see, I guess.
evile: Mom will likely wade right in and have a great time. Aunt L,
Uncle B, and I will probably hide in a corner, twitching.
evile: G/stepdad, too :P
SkyeDS: lol
evile: Mom was always great with the [V family]--they are like "My Big
Fat Transylvanian Wedding" 24/7.
SkyeDS: rofl
evile: Mom fits in socially anywhere she goes...she's very adept. I
can be...but it's not a consistent ability.
SkyeDS: I try very hard, I don't always succeed
evile: That may be another innate-to-some talent that is tricky to
learn...
evile: I'm at Quota + 20 with 2 hours until quitting time. Hopefully
that will snap the boss people out of their diaper act (ie: Get them
OFF MY ASS!!!)
SkyeDS: I would think so!
evile: thinking...not a good thing to do around here. Just gets ya in
trouble.
SkyeDS: lol
evile: The stick is not big enough to do anything besides annoy me
and the carrot is long gone.
SkyeDS: rofl! eloquently put
evile: *sigh* Oh well. It beats being one of our customers, I guess.
SkyeDS: indeed
evile: Now that the economy is getting better, I won't feel so guilty
about bitching about work.
SkyeDS: hope sineater goes back to dell or somewhere soon
evile: That would be good.
evile: Oh ick. p0rn as someone's LJ icon. ...nice.
SkyeDS: ew
SkyeDS: as paid for gas yesterday looked up and big nearly porn
banner
evile: yuck.
SkyeDS: thought ya know, that's a lawsuit in the making if you have
female employees
evile: there are LJ communities devoted to such photos, but I darn
sure don't look at them while at work! And, really, I want to
_choose_ to see it, not have it shoved in my face, no m atter where I
am.
evile: despite the laws, most employees (esp at low paying gigs)
don't know their rights in the workplace.
SkyeDS: nods
evile: I get frustrated when people write in an appeal after being
denied, and it's obvious they have a case, but they're not savvy
enough to present it properly.
SkyeDS: no one to refer them to for help...?
evile: Not that I know of. Nobody is supposed to discuss merits
except the hearing officers. I'd get in big trouble if I gave someone
advice on what to say or how to say it.
SkyeDS: :(
evile: yeah...it sucks. But, theoretically, everyone has the same
access to public education & information, so it isn't my fault if
they didn't take advantage of their opportunities & ended up dirt-
ignorant working at 7-11.

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evilE

May 4, 2004

evile: It's so nice out! I really wanna play hooky...darn this work
ethic. darn it!!
SkyeDS: lol
evile: I have phone duty tomorrow, so I'll get to leave an hour
early. That will be almost as good as playing hooky...
evile: Tomorrow's poly dinner too :) Hopefully phone duty will be
nice so I won't be in a rotten mood after work.
SkyeDS: :)
evile: Would it be OK for me to bring you the UT schedule book after
work today, or would it be better some other time?
SkyeDS: I'll be here till 6 tonight
evile: Ok if I swing by 'round 4:30ish? I won't keep you, I'll just
drop & run ...
SkyeDS: surely :)
evile: cool :)
evile: AWW! Baybeeee Racoooons! SOCUTE!!! They were on a web page
showing ugly (human) babies. I can't believe anybody thinks these
little guys are ugly!
http://www.nmt.edu/~erenee/newborn_raccoons_animalcapture.JPG
evile: here are the rest of 'em. NASTY ugly human dumplings:
http://www.nmt.edu/~erenee/uglybabies1.html
SkyeDS: will wait till boss is gone before I go lookin
evile: OK
evile: I think I'm finally beginning to agree with others' opinions
on the tone of the CF community. In general, we are a pretty hateful
bunch. I unsubbed from the LJ CF community. Didn't want to read it
anymore. Too ugly.
SkyeDS: <is child free (according to those with human children).
evile: well, you could call yourself 'childless' and thus imply that
there was a palpable *lack* rather than "gloat" about it by using the
world 'free'...Or at least that's the way I think the logic goes...
evile: At any rate, I am to the point where I don't have enough time
& energy for the people & things I _love_, so I am certainly not
going to waste any of it on things I don't like...
SkyeDS: my feelings too. too old fat and married.
evile: No polite person should carry the conversation past "do you
have kids?" anyway. If someone does, I can truthfully say "I can't
get pregnant" :P

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2323owies

2021-04-27T22:38:55Z

Jun. 29, 2004

Krav Maga last night did something to my back and/or my sciatic nerve
on the left side. Owie.

I can't find my wallet this a.m. Pretty sure I had it in my bag after
class, it may still be in my class bag and not in my work bookbag. I
hope. I will probably worry about it all day. How irritating.

I hope it didn't fall out of my bookbag either on the way out the
door or as I got out of the car to go in to work.

ergh. Hassle. My whole existence is in that wallet--drivers license,
library card, SS card, credit card, ulta card, cash, ATM card. ugh.

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2290icq w/A

2021-03-26T19:48:25Z

Jun. 18, 2004

evile: TGIF!!!
SkyeDS: :)
evile: busy day for y'all :)
SkyeDS: hope to get this shit w Maria over w
SkyeDS: I wanted Kelly to have that stuff too :(
evile: *nods* that's been a real hassle. How's the new tenant?
SkyeDS: fine so far
evile: good.
SkyeDS: rent paid on time, paying installments of deposit on time
SkyeDS: Kelly likes them (very important)
evile: yeah.
evile: I am so very ready to go home & have another early night at
home
SkyeDS: nods
evile: And then Saturday's for shopping, cooking, and cleaning, and
Sunday's The Picnic..which should be interesting, at the very least.
SkyeDS: has she made up her mind whether she's well enough to come?
SkyeDS: sineater made it sound like she keeps changing it
evile: When I last talked with them on Tues, she was all gung ho
to 'brave' the journey. I tried my best to discourage her....I don't
want her making herself sick or hurting herself on my behalf, ya know?
evile: 1) I don't want to summon up all sorts of fake "Oh, you're so
great and wonderful for hurting yourself JUST to be here!"
2) I dont' want her hurting herself and then saying "Oh, it's all
that evil evilE's fault for demanding that I attend her stupid
picnic!"
evile: Given her histrionics, it could really go either way. And I
can also see her getting miffed if she shows up, doesn't get hurt or
sick in the process, and I *don't* fawn all over her praising her
bravery and martyrdom....
evile: I dont' care if she comes or not, but if she does, it's not
going to be the "Wonderful The Rubber Pig Drama Show"
SkyeDS: hope not
evile: If she shows up I'll be like "Hey, thanks for coming, meet my
friends, go swim" and that'll be about it.
evile: The really great thing about being hostess is that I can't
allow myself to be pinned down with any one person, and that its'
about ME. :P
SkyeDS: lol nods
evile: It's my party, these are my loved ones, and if you want to be
the Diva, go throw your own party.
SkyeDS: I suspect Hugh is going to have a bad afternoon
evile: ooh, yucko.
SkyeDS: and nothing I can do to shield him from it neither
evile: Well, if you need to go do damage control & run offline
unexpectedly, dont' worry 'bout it :P
SkyeDS: tc conf w problem child today
evile: ick.
SkyeDS: she'll bend my ear all day long but won't talk to Hugh long
enough about important things so he can do a good job
evile: ugh. Maybe you can just try and condense her blab down to the
main points, outline-style. :P
evile: You know...you and I are weirdos. We do and say some pretty
bizarre stuff sometimes...but when you examine our words & actions by
our own stated values, they are internally consistent. That is the
main problem I have with The Rubber Pig, I think. Her actions and words are
not consistent with her stated beliefs and values.
SkyeDS: I don't like people who are not at least internally consistent
evile: *nods*
evile: I can't even imagine all the health problems she brings on
herself by behaving so much against what she says she believes is
right.
evile: sineater said y'all were going to be at equestrian practice in
Elgin next weekend? I might want to see sineater & Jessie do their stuff
sometime.
SkyeDS: nods
SkyeDS: it's a little north of elgin proper
SkyeDS: they are talking about starting at 10 and going till whenever
SkyeDS: bryn gwlad's course is not a full course tho
evile: every little bit of practice is helpful, though, I imagine..?
SkyeDS: nods
SkyeDS: just so you know, it's not what competition looks like exactly
evile: aha.
evile: I probably dont' have the patience to watch a full
competition, anyway.
SkyeDS: the reeds don't have heads on them and the ring stands don't
have rings
evile: Ok....
evile: Ugh. I just got a baby shower invite. For people I dont' even
know. If I wouldnt' go to Knighthorse & Kulilinei's, there is NO way I"m going
to some strangers'.
SkyeDS: ick
evile: supposedly it turns into a 'real' party 11 pm, but I cant'
stay up that late since I have stuff to do Sunday a.m.
evile: Plus I'd feel like a heel to only show up for the 'real' party
and not do the gifty baby crappy party
SkyeDS: nods
evile: Oh well. Maybe they'll throw a real party soon & still invite
me even though I've turned them down for 2 baby shower parties
already..
evile: Oh, I gotta tell you, here's how bad Krav Maga is kicking my
ass: my arms hurt *juicing lemons* last night...pitiful!!
SkyeDS: but you like it :P
evile: On the expectation/hope that it will get better, yes. But for
now...owwwww!
SkyeDS: news sources can't seem to agree on whether that hostage is
still alive or not
evile: Sweetie likes the drudge report for stuff like that.
SkyeDS: I like Drudge
SkyeDS: sineater doesn't trust anything conservative
evile: I dont' read real news.
evile: the only TV station we get is FOX, so needless to say I don't
watch TV news either. I don't wanna know..it just makes me want to
kill/die...and I hate feeling like that. Just nuke the shit out of
everything, W, and get it over with....
SkyeDS: I still say if we'd nuked 9 countries and started drilling
oil over there, and asked the other 13 if they wanted the same...
SkyeDS: like, on 9/12
evile: yup.
evile: still no reply from Pat &/or his wife re: Sunday. I
guess "good friends" can be allowed to "drift apart" after all.
SkyeDS: :-/
evile: Put your money where your mouth is or shut the hell
up...that's all I want from people in this life.
evile: Then again, nobody seems to know how to RSVP anymore...so
maybe they'll show up anyway.
evile: I need to try & get to the library tomorrow, I'm out of stuff
to read at home.
SkyeDS: I haven't read anything new in a very long time
evile: That is my main addiction. I get antsy when I have no books to
read.
SkyeDS: lovely
SkyeDS: Hugh's daughter is about to have to go to the ER
SkyeDS: just what he needs
evile: oh no. poor thing!!
SkyeDS: got to meet his wife Joyce finally
SkyeDS: always nice to put a face to a voice
evile: cool :)
evile: Things getting any calmer over there?
SkyeDS: only because our doctor is truant
evile: Oh??
evile: NOt the child's ER dr, but a client. Nevermind. I think I got
it.
SkyeDS: this is going to cost her between 10 and 20K and she seems ot
have no interest in her own defense
SkyeDS: (the client)
evile: wow.. :(
evile: well, I'm going to go to the annex & get a copy of this weeks
Chronicle before I start my rounds, so I'm going to head that way.
SkyeDS: hugs
evile: Have a good time this weekend :)
evile: TGIF!!!
SkyeDS: :)
evile: busy day for y'all :)
SkyeDS: hope to get this shit w Maria over w
SkyeDS: I wanted Kelly to have that stuff too :(
evile: *nods* that's been a real hassle. How's the new tenant?
SkyeDS: fine so far
evile: good.
SkyeDS: rent paid on time, paying installments of deposit on time
SkyeDS: Kelly likes them (very important)
evile: yeah.
evile: I am so very ready to go home & have another early night at
home
SkyeDS: nods
evile: And then Saturday's for shopping, cooking, and cleaning, and
Sunday's The Picnic..which should be interesting, at the very least.
SkyeDS: has she made up her mind whether she's well enough to come?
SkyeDS: sineater made it sound like she keeps changing it
evile: When I last talked with them on Tues, she was all gung ho
to 'brave' the journey. I tried my best to discourage her....I don't
want her making herself sick or hurting herself on my behalf, ya know?
evile: 1) I don't want to summon up all sorts of fake "Oh, you're so
great and wonderful for hurting yourself JUST to be here!"
2) I dont' want her hurting herself and then saying "Oh, it's all
that evil evilE's fault for demanding that I attend her stupid
picnic!"
evile: Given her histrionics, it could really go either way. And I
can also see her getting miffed if she shows up, doesn't get hurt or
sick in the process, and I *don't* fawn all over her praising her
bravery and martyrdom....
evile: I dont' care if she comes or not, but if she does, it's not
going to be the "Wonderful The Rubber Pig Drama Show"
SkyeDS: hope not
evile: If she shows up I'll be like "Hey, thanks for coming, meet my
friends, go swim" and that'll be about it.
evile: The really great thing about being hostess is that I can't
allow myself to be pinned down with any one person, and that its'
about ME. :P
SkyeDS: lol nods
evile: It's my party, these are my loved ones, and if you want to be
the Diva, go throw your own party.
SkyeDS: I suspect Hugh is going to have a bad afternoon
evile: ooh, yucko.
SkyeDS: and nothing I can do to shield him from it neither
evile: Well, if you need to go do damage control & run offline
unexpectedly, dont' worry 'bout it :P
SkyeDS: tc conf w problem child today
evile: ick.
SkyeDS: she'll bend my ear all day long but won't talk to Hugh long
enough about important things so he can do a good job
evile: ugh. Maybe you can just try and condense her blab down to the
main points, outline-style. :P
evile: You know...you and I are weirdos. We do and say some pretty
bizarre stuff sometimes...but when you examine our words & actions by
our own stated values, they are internally consistent. That is the
main problem I have with The Rubber Pig, I think. Her actions and words are
not consistent with her stated beliefs and values.
SkyeDS: I don't like people who are not at least internally consistent
evile: *nods*
evile: I can't even imagine all the health problems she brings on
herself by behaving so much against what she says she believes is
right.
evile: sineater said y'all were going to be at equestrian practice in
Elgin next weekend? I might want to see sineater & Jessie do their stuff
sometime.
SkyeDS: nods
SkyeDS: it's a little north of elgin proper
SkyeDS: they are talking about starting at 10 and going till whenever
SkyeDS: bryn gwlad's course is not a full course tho
evile: every little bit of practice is helpful, though, I imagine..?
SkyeDS: nods
SkyeDS: just so you know, it's not what competition looks like exactly
evile: aha.
evile: I probably dont' have the patience to watch a full
competition, anyway.
SkyeDS: the reeds don't have heads on them and the ring stands don't
have rings
evile: Ok....
evile: Ugh. I just got a baby shower invite. For people I dont' even
know. If I wouldnt' go to Andre & Julie's, there is NO way I"m going
to some strangers'.
SkyeDS: ick
evile: supposedly it turns into a 'real' party 11 pm, but I cant'
stay up that late since I have stuff to do Sunday a.m.
evile: Plus I'd feel like a heel to only show up for the 'real' party
and not do the gifty baby crappy party
SkyeDS: nods
evile: Oh well. Maybe they'll throw a real party soon & still invite
me even though I've turned them down for 2 baby shower parties
already..
evile: Oh, I gotta tell you, here's how bad Krav Maga is kicking my
ass: my arms hurt *juicing lemons* last night...pitiful!!
SkyeDS: but you like it :P
evile: On the expectation/hope that it will get better, yes. But for
now...owwwww!
SkyeDS: news sources can't seem to agree on whether that hostage is
still alive or not
evile: Tom likes the drudge report for stuff like that.
SkyeDS: I like Drudge
SkyeDS: sineater doesn't trust anything conservative
evile: I dont' read real news.
evile: the only TV station we get is FOX, so needless to say I don't
watch TV news either. I don't wanna know..it just makes me want to
kill/die...and I hate feeling like that. Just nuke the shit out of
everything, W, and get it over with....
SkyeDS: I still say if we'd nuked 9 countries and started drilling
oil over there, and asked the other 13 if they wanted the same...
SkyeDS: like, on 9/12
evile: yup.
evile: still no reply from Pat &/or his wife re: Sunday. I
guess "good friends" can be allowed to "drift apart" after all.
SkyeDS: :-/
evile: Put your money where your mouth is or shut the hell
up...that's all I want from people in this life.
evile: Then again, nobody seems to know how to RSVP anymore...so
maybe they'll show up anyway.
evile: I need to try & get to the library tomorrow, I'm out of stuff
to read at home.
SkyeDS: I haven't read anything new in a very long time
evile: That is my main addiction. I get antsy when I have no books to
read.
SkyeDS: lovely
SkyeDS: Hugh's daughter is about to have to go to the ER
SkyeDS: just what he needs
evile: oh no. poor thing!!
SkyeDS: got to meet his wife Joyce finally
SkyeDS: always nice to put a face to a voice
evile: cool :)
evile: Things getting any calmer over there?
SkyeDS: only because our doctor is truant
evile: Oh??
evile: NOt the child's ER dr, but a client. Nevermind. I think I got
it.
SkyeDS: this is going to cost her between 10 and 20K and she seems ot
have no interest in her own defense
SkyeDS: (the client)
evile: wow.. :(
evile: well, I'm going to go to the annex & get a copy of this weeks
Chronicle before I start my rounds, so I'm going to head that way.
SkyeDS: hugs
evile: Have a good time this weekend :)
evile: TGIF!!!
SkyeDS: :)
evile: busy day for y'all :)
SkyeDS: hope to get this shit w Maria over w
SkyeDS: I wanted Kelly to have that stuff too :(
evile: *nods* that's been a real hassle. How's the new tenant?
SkyeDS: fine so far
evile: good.
SkyeDS: rent paid on time, paying installments of deposit on time
SkyeDS: Kelly likes them (very important)
evile: yeah.
evile: I am so very ready to go home & have another early night at
home
SkyeDS: nods
evile: And then Saturday's for shopping, cooking, and cleaning, and
Sunday's The Picnic..which should be interesting, at the very least.
SkyeDS: has she made up her mind whether she's well enough to come?
SkyeDS: sineater made it sound like she keeps changing it
evile: When I last talked with them on Tues, she was all gung ho
to 'brave' the journey. I tried my best to discourage her....I don't
want her making herself sick or hurting herself on my behalf, ya know?
evile: 1) I don't want to summon up all sorts of fake "Oh, you're so
great and wonderful for hurting yourself JUST to be here!"
2) I dont' want her hurting herself and then saying "Oh, it's all
that evil evilE's fault for demanding that I attend her stupid
picnic!"
evile: Given her histrionics, it could really go either way. And I
can also see her getting miffed if she shows up, doesn't get hurt or
sick in the process, and I *don't* fawn all over her praising her
bravery and martyrdom....
evile: I dont' care if she comes or not, but if she does, it's not
going to be the "Wonderful The Rubber Pig Drama Show"
SkyeDS: hope not
evile: If she shows up I'll be like "Hey, thanks for coming, meet my
friends, go swim" and that'll be about it.
evile: The really great thing about being hostess is that I can't
allow myself to be pinned down with any one person, and that its'
about ME. :P
SkyeDS: lol nods
evile: It's my party, these are my loved ones, and if you want to be
the Diva, go throw your own party.
SkyeDS: I suspect Hugh is going to have a bad afternoon
evile: ooh, yucko.
SkyeDS: and nothing I can do to shield him from it neither
evile: Well, if you need to go do damage control & run offline
unexpectedly, dont' worry 'bout it :P
SkyeDS: tc conf w problem child today
evile: ick.
SkyeDS: she'll bend my ear all day long but won't talk to Hugh long
enough about important things so he can do a good job
evile: ugh. Maybe you can just try and condense her blab down to the
main points, outline-style. :P
evile: You know...you and I are weirdos. We do and say some pretty
bizarre stuff sometimes...but when you examine our words & actions by
our own stated values, they are internally consistent. That is the
main problem I have with The Rubber Pig, I think. Her actions and words are
not consistent with her stated beliefs and values.
SkyeDS: I don't like people who are not at least internally consistent
evile: *nods*
evile: I can't even imagine all the health problems she brings on
herself by behaving so much against what she says she believes is
right.
evile: sineater said y'all were going to be at equestrian practice in
Elgin next weekend? I might want to see sineater & Jessie do their stuff
sometime.
SkyeDS: nods
SkyeDS: it's a little north of elgin proper
SkyeDS: they are talking about starting at 10 and going till whenever
SkyeDS: bryn gwlad's course is not a full course tho
evile: every little bit of practice is helpful, though, I imagine..?
SkyeDS: nods
SkyeDS: just so you know, it's not what competition looks like exactly
evile: aha.
evile: I probably dont' have the patience to watch a full
competition, anyway.
SkyeDS: the reeds don't have heads on them and the ring stands don't
have rings
evile: Ok....
evile: Ugh. I just got a baby shower invite. For people I dont' even
know. If I wouldnt' go to Andre & Julie's, there is NO way I"m going
to some strangers'.
SkyeDS: ick
evile: supposedly it turns into a 'real' party 11 pm, but I cant'
stay up that late since I have stuff to do Sunday a.m.
evile: Plus I'd feel like a heel to only show up for the 'real' party
and not do the gifty baby crappy party
SkyeDS: nods
evile: Oh well. Maybe they'll throw a real party soon & still invite
me even though I've turned them down for 2 baby shower parties
already..
evile: Oh, I gotta tell you, here's how bad Krav Maga is kicking my
ass: my arms hurt *juicing lemons* last night...pitiful!!
SkyeDS: but you like it :P
evile: On the expectation/hope that it will get better, yes. But for
now...owwwww!
SkyeDS: news sources can't seem to agree on whether that hostage is
still alive or not
evile: Tom likes the drudge report for stuff like that.
SkyeDS: I like Drudge
SkyeDS: sineater doesn't trust anything conservative
evile: I dont' read real news.
evile: the only TV station we get is FOX, so needless to say I don't
watch TV news either. I don't wanna know..it just makes me want to
kill/die...and I hate feeling like that. Just nuke the shit out of
everything, W, and get it over with....
SkyeDS: I still say if we'd nuked 9 countries and started drilling
oil over there, and asked the other 13 if they wanted the same...
SkyeDS: like, on 9/12
evile: yup.
evile: still no reply from Pat &/or his wife re: Sunday. I
guess "good friends" can be allowed to "drift apart" after all.
SkyeDS: :-/
evile: Put your money where your mouth is or shut the hell
up...that's all I want from people in this life.
evile: Then again, nobody seems to know how to RSVP anymore...so
maybe they'll show up anyway.
evile: I need to try & get to the library tomorrow, I'm out of stuff
to read at home.
SkyeDS: I haven't read anything new in a very long time
evile: That is my main addiction. I get antsy when I have no books to
read.
SkyeDS: lovely
SkyeDS: Hugh's daughter is about to have to go to the ER
SkyeDS: just what he needs
evile: oh no. poor thing!!
SkyeDS: got to meet his wife Joyce finally
SkyeDS: always nice to put a face to a voice
evile: cool :)
evile: Things getting any calmer over there?
SkyeDS: only because our doctor is truant
evile: Oh??
evile: NOt the child's ER dr, but a client. Nevermind. I think I got
it.
SkyeDS: this is going to cost her between 10 and 20K and she seems ot
have no interest in her own defense
SkyeDS: (the client)
evile: wow.. :(
evile: well, I'm going to go to the annex & get a copy of this weeks
Chronicle before I start my rounds, so I'm going to head that way.
SkyeDS: hugs
evile: Have a good time this weekend :)
SkeyDS: ty :) HUGS u2

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2288icq w/A

2021-03-26T19:40:55Z

Jun. 17, 2004

evile: Happy Thursday!
SkyeDS: :)
SkyeDS: meant to ask you yesterday, whyfor you moved to BD on Chaos.
SkyeDS: <was just thinking about moving back to Drandmir.
evile: Oh, I was trying to sign up as a 'maybe' for CRW and for some
reason it would not let me, kept telling me I had to be a member of a
group to use that feature. So I checked, and I WAS a member of
Drandmir, but the machine was not being helpful. So I switched to BD
and it 'took' my registration for CRW after that.
SkyeDS: cool
evile: It was just a bizarre little glitch, I guess. irritating.
SkyeDS: I'm not a conspiracy theorist but I doubt it is a glitch
SkyeDS: I don't t hink anything's a glitch where PtA and Drandmir are
concerned
evile: It could be that there's some thing somewhere that says "is E
a member of Drandmir?" and some Official Drandmir person clicked 'no'
and that's why it didn't work...
evile: I don't really care. If I go I won't stay overnight, most
likely, and I probably wont'do feast, so it's not like they need my
headcount in order to accomodate me.
SkyeDS: they'll charge you full price regardless
evile: which is why I rsvpd, so they could get a rough estimate of
income for the event.
SkyeDS: I've said many times I think salt lick would be a good place
to have feast (and court if they'd humor us)
evile: whine whine whine it's too expensive waah.
SkyeDS: well, I imagine if we took enough people there might be a
discount that could be negotiated.
evile: probably not...but no harm in asking. Personally, it would be
worth the cost to not have to shlep dishes/food around, if I were an
organizer/helper for CRW.
evile: Did you see the post in austin poly about the tubing trip on
the 27th? That sounds so awesome...I may have to go.
SkyeDS: have not been tubing in long time
SkyeDS: looking forward to some time in the water on the wknd of the
4th
SkyeDS: Rockdale's swimmin pool is not 6 miles from the house, and I
didn't go at all last summer, stupid
evile: Well, here you are, with a whole nother summer to play with. :)
evile: It's evil of me to think it, but I imagine Aunt L will bribe me
to take the kids to schlitterbahn sometime this summer.
SkyeDS: wonder how much it will be worth
evile: She didn't even blink when I told her season passes to
schlitterbahn were over $100. So...whatever it is, I'm sure it'll
turn out to be a win-win, she'll feel like it was worth it to get a
day of peace & quiet, the kids will have fun, and I probably will
too :P
SkyeDS: how many times you have to take them to need season passes...
evile: probably about 4.
SkyeDS: couldn't you just take them once as a gesture
evile: Im sure that's all she'll ask me to do.
SkyeDS: depending on when you go, I would like to go too?
evile: I will keep you posted. Will probably be sometime during the
work week--less traffic, crowds & lines.
SkyeDS: nods
evile: Fiesta TX has a growing water area, too. If the 'saddling of
the CF' had occurred earlier in the year, she could have gotten a
family four pack for like $50 or something..
evile: Of course, the 'bahn & Fiesta TX can only be reached by
putting squalling younguns in a car and driving for 1-2 hours,
so...neither one is really all that ideal.
SkyeDS: nods
evile: Elaine's neighborhood pool is free for residents & guests,
that's what the kids did yesterday.
SkyeDS: had a free pool when I was in the park
SkyeDS: since technically I've only subleased out suppose I still
have free use there
evile: teh one by my house is free, but it's in the ghetto and all...
SkyeDS: but it closes at 6
evile: bummer.
evile: Oh, THIS is lovely:
http://www.cnn.com/2004/US/Southwest/06/17/downtown.drownings.ap/index
.html

I am sure the CF'ers will get a nice hearty grin out of that story...
SkyeDS: they talked about that on radio news for days
evile: good lord.
evile: And I love the rationale "kid sees a waterfall and of COURSE
they think its for them to play in"...um, try that logic on the
people in the lobby at the Hilton, fucko.
evile: Do they surgically remove the ability to say the word "NO"
when people become parents? What the hell...
SkyeDS: <no clue
evile: and it looks like the parents actually *intentionally* took
thier kids there to swim, hence the children dressed in swimsuits...
SkyeDS: and somebody's poor 11 yo died trying to help
evile: I know...that SUCKS.
SkyeDS: and the good reverend thinks the problem is, despite the no
swimming signs, that there is no fence and steps leading down to the
fountain
SkyeDS: jesus h christ
evile: fill it in with concrete, protect duh chyldrruuun!
SkyeDS: "the kids thought it was ok because there was no fence and
there were steps"
SkyeDS: ok so Dad can't read where it says no swimming?
SkyeDS: Dad should be prosecuted for criminal negligence
SkyeDS: he took them there on purpose in suits because the hotel pool
was closed.
evile: Oh, but "he's already suffered enough"
evile: what they always say when parents 'accidentally' kill their
kids.
SkyeDS: making copies, slow
evile: No biggie, I know you're at work. :) Krav Maga last night was
awesome, BTW.
SkyeDS: :)
evile: I was disappointed when I got home after 9 and realized I'd
missed a call from sineater :( But hopefully we'll catch up with each
other eventually...
SkyeDS: must have called before I got home last night (which was like
9)
evile: the machine said he called around 7.
SkyeDS: bout the time I left.
evile: Has he been able to touch base with Brother A at all? I have NO
idea what their hours are like....
SkyeDS: nope, phone tag
evile: figures.
SkyeDS: sineater's home all damn day and all damn night, just about,
during the week <shrug>
SkyeDS: I come home and crash immediately but he's usually up before
I am in the morning (Arthur) and up past me at night
evile: *nods*
evile: I am under the impression that Trey works late, while Brother A &
The Rubber Pig do not work at all and she's still fairly limited in mobility,
so I don't see how they can not be there when people call....but I
can see her not answering the phone if you're hurting & not in the
mood to talk. And Brother A not feeling like he should be distracted from
her when she's not doing well.
evile: My feeling/suspicion is that Brother A knows sineater is not one to be
tactful or tell someone what they want to hear, and he does not want
to hear what sineater has to say...
SkyeDS: sineater doesn't entirely believe she has had surgery at all
SkyeDS: I think you're exactly right
evile: I hadn't even considered THAT possibility. I can see someone
exaggerating the severity of the surgery risks and getting themselves
all worked up and scared, but to make it up COMPLETELY...wow.
evile: See...honest, sane people have no natural defenses against
these kinds of pathological lunatics....being honest & sane myself, I
don't think I could even conceive of putting my friends, family &
loved ones through that kind of worry for no reason besides Drama.
evile: sineater does better at that kind of Macchiavellian thinking,
because of his suspicious & paranoid Scorpio nature. I honestly NEVER
would have thought to question that there was SOME sort of surgery,
at least.
SkyeDS: <shrugs>
SkyeDS: I have no clue, I'm in no position to guess
SkyeDS: I could consult my cards but why bother
evile: well..and ultimately it's not Reality that counts, but what
The Rubber Pig and Brother A believe is real... :(
SkyeDS: I can't imagine K/Mom would be pleased to know that
she's "supposed" to help watch the kids for some portion of the
summer, when TX summer is so detrimental to her health
evile: Well, Aunt L's an adult & had the right to say 'no' to them, but
didn't, despite her own health issues. Mom also has that right,and is
apparently exercising it, whether they heard her or not.
evile: And I fully intend to be sure that Mom & Sister H crash at my
place, not Aunt L & Uncle B's, and that they get quality vacation time and
not just sprog-chasing for the 1 week they're planning on being here.
SkyeDS: they're coming after all then
SkyeDS: I hope he's working by then, but if not, I can bring him into
town with me and he can spend the day(s) with them.
evile: Mom &Sister H asked me to look for airfares for them to come
for 1 week in July. Then the kids got dumped on Aunt L and Mom said
something about coming for more of the summer to help Aunt L. then Mom
got some sense & we are now back to 1 week in July.
SkyeDS: my parents want to pay to get the black truck more fully
operational again, so that should improve situations too
SkyeDS: and the job he's interviewing for is 3 - 11 shift so there's
that too
evile: That would be good :)
SkyeDS: I am taking him and M to Kelly's tomorrow and leaving them
there with Arthur and Maria's stuff
SkyeDS: so that Maria can pay us, get her stuff back, and then at
8:30 we're going to leave to meet Bob at his hotel at 9 and do dinner
evile: *nods*
SkyeDS: told Bob I was driving horses on Saturday so he knows I don't
want to be up too late but I probably will be anyway <shrug>
evile: sounds like a good solution to the quandary of how to get time
with your friend and also get to your event.
SkyeDS: sineater, sonar0m adn Arthur always have a good time at Kelly's /w
the kids
evile: I bet :)
SkyeDS: prolly go swimmin <sigh> wish could go with
evile: yeah...workin sucks.
SkyeDS: I want to get here earlier and leave earlier
SkyeDS: maybe this weekend or next or soon I can get my patterns
adjusted enough to get off work in time to swim there before driving
home
evile: yeah..but that involves getting up earlier...which can be
tough. But summer's good for that, more daylight & stuff.
SkyeDS: my new morning routine is going to require me adjusting anyway
SkyeDS: I have to take a 20 min bath
evile: *nods*
SkyeDS: followed w 20 min of heating pad
SkyeDS: and because heating pad = electrical cord I can't combine the
two
SkyeDS: then I have to eat breakfast
SkyeDS: eat, not drink it.
SkyeDS: do exercises (I tend not to)
evile: yup.
evile: I made a breakfast casserole last night, that will be
breakfast for the next 4-5 days.
SkyeDS: I wonder if I could just make a big old mound of scrambled
eggs with stuff in to last that long
evile: basically, that's what I did: eggs, cheese, rotel tomatoes, a
few corn tortillas, stirred together, baked 30 min, and viola,
breakfast for a week.
SkyeDS: I'd be happy with just eggs, some sort of meat, cheese and
maybe a tiny bit of potato
evile: I don't see why that could'nt be made breakfast casserole
style...
SkyeDS: eggs, cheese, chorizo and a judiciously small amount of
potato is good together
evile: yup
SkyeDS: is = are
evile: I got it :)
evile: I guess it depends on your schedule, whether it's easier to
spend 5 minutes in the kitchen every a.m. making breakfast, or to
bake 1 thing for 30 minutes, in advance.
SkyeDS: would be cool if I could do it on Sunday and it be good for a
week
evile: I've had no problems with my breakfast casseroles. I tried
freezing scrambled eggs once, THAT was icky. But making a casserole
and keeping it refrigerated seems to be fine for 4-5 days.
SkyeDS: kinda stupid to say I'm too lazy to make an omelette every
morning :-/
evile: It's easy, but it does make dirty dishes to cook every
morning. kind of a hassle.
evile: And for me, I just really am not awake in the a.m...I have my
little routine timed almost to the minute, and that's it.
SkyeDS: nodnods
evile: I was getting kinda good about getting up to do my AM Yoga but
then the time change hit.
evile: Onyxlynxx is at the gym at 5:15 in the a.m....I admire her so much
for that.
SkyeDS: I saw her yesterday, said hi, she didn't have anything else
to say
evile: on line, or in RL?
SkyeDS: online
evile: aha. Well, she works in a call center, so I'm sure she goes
through spells of nothing and then 20 things happening at once.
evile: She hasn't added me back on ICQ, so I can't see whether she's
on or not.
SkyeDS: I saw her on mine, but hers says still waiting to authorize
so some weirdness is afoot
evile: Icq to go is the best thing I've found...it's not great, but
Yahoo messenger crashes everything. And I have never figured out if
AIM 'portable' is even working, nobody on my AIM list is ever showed
as being 'online'
SkyeDS: I got tired of all the different "to gos" and so I use
trillian
SkyeDS: which works fine if your machine isn't too old
evile: I can't download at work. And I have win 95 at home. No
trillian for me.
SkyeDS: nods
evile: Sweetie is making noises about upgrading my stuff at home,
but...eh. I'll believe it when I see it.
SkyeDS: I don't pay any attention to what sineater does to our stuff
until it stops working
evile: heh. same here.
evile: 1) I am still waiting for enoughmemory to download my MT photos
2) yahoo mail, since it's 'improvement' does not work from my home
computer/browser.
evile: sineater's online....that' s a rarity :)
SkyeDS: /me nods
evile: probably cheaper than a phone call :)
SkyeDS: we have metro one way to Austin
SkyeDS: think we should invest in unlimited LD soon, it's not much
more
evile: that's probably a very good thing. For whatever crazy reason,
it costs me more to call you, an hours drive away, than it does to
call J-Law in CA or Mom in IN.
SkyeDS: SBC does unlimited ld for $20
SkyeDS: metro (one way, not available two, or you could call me
local) is $15
evile: My current LD bill is usually about $6 a month.
evile: I hardly ever use the phone...I like the computer better.
SkyeDS: nods
SkyeDS: easier to transfer media, and edit myself
evile: yeah...I'm getting better about the brain-to-mouth connection,
but still not perfect. Otherwise I never would have said that
sarcastic thing to The Rubber Pig about not calling Brother A a shmuck in front of
me...I would have phrased it better.
evile: Well, I need to get paper shuffled & whatnot.
SkyeDS: nodnod, wind to your wings, bella :)
evile: *hugs* take care :)

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2368Krav maga class

2020-09-21T19:13:11Z

Jul. 15, 2004

Krav Maga Class was pretty amazing last night. I did get winded
during the warmup, but I made it through everything OK. Bruised the
knuckles on my right pinky & ring-finger. My hand wrap started to
come undone during class, so I took it off. The last part of class,
of course, involved hitting a bag as hard and fast as possible. Ow.
Oh well, it was fun. My 'sparring buddy' was this adorable young man
named Aeneas. Ooh, he was so pretty. It would be ugly and ridiculous
to actually do something carnal with someone that pretty, but it's
sure nice to look at.

If Sweetie hadn't been sleepy & grouchy last night, I might have pounced
on him and had my Valkyrie way with him. O well, his loss ;P

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